I conceived baby #2 on our last day of vacation in Hawaii. We were using OPKs. 10 days later I started testing. The first was negative but two days later on November 2nd I got a postive. A few days later I went to the doctor for confirmation. Everything was great.
At first official OB appointment I should have been 6 weeks and 2 days. We should have seen a heartbeat. We did t. The doctor told us not to give up hope but to come in in 2 weeks for a repeat ultrasound. I was getting worried but my MH remained postive. We went for the appointment and there was a heartbeat! We found out there were 2 sacs and one didn't make it. I was very sad about the twin but grateful to still have one baby. I was so careful. I ate all the right foods and avoided all the wrong things. I got enough rest and walked. So I was shocked this week at my 10 week appointment that we found out the other baby didn't make it.
I wanted to go straight to the D&C but my doc couldn't get in until Friday. My H suggested giving the cytotec a chance and doing the D&C if it came to that. I agreed.
I got the prescription and pain medication yesterday afternoon. I took a pain pill before doing the 4 vaginally pills. I did that at 330 and sat down to watch a movie. 2 hrs later nothing was happening. My husband came home with our daughter. They had dinner but I wasn't hungry, just sad. By her bedtime I was starting to hurt pretty bad but no bleeding. The bleeding started around 9 and the pain became unbearable. I tried a hot bath, a shower, heating pads. Nothing worked. I took more pain medicine. I promptly vomited it up. By 12 I was screaming out in pain and bleeding heavily. I also passed the fetus. That was heartbreaking. I couldn't flush it so my husband took it outside and buried it. I tried more pain mess bit kept throwing up. I kinda wanted to go to the ER bit I couldn't get off the floor and couldn't get dressed. My husband couldn't take it anymore and cursed up a pain pill and a sleeping pills and mixed it with hot tea and spooned it in my mouth. I was afraid to try anymore pain killers because I had so many.My husband reminded me I threw it up. Still o was afraid I was going to overdose. But the pain was so bad I decided to risk it. I slept until 7 this morning. I thought the worse was over. However, when I got up I passed what I guess was the sac. It looked like a deflated ballon. Then I passed a huge tissue collection that I actually had to pull out of me. I don't know what that was. It was gray. I stayed home from work today and stayed in my pjs napping on and off. The bleeding has tapered off. I go in Friday for an ultrasound to make sure I passed everything. Of not, I will have the D&C.
I honestly wish I would have went straight for the D&C. Last night was terrible. The pain was worse than my c section.
I am ready to recover from this physically and mentally so I can try again. I am just so sad. I was so happy to have conceived the baby in Hawaii. The birthday was to be in July, the same as my daughter
The would have been exactly 5 years apart. Then my daughter would have started kindergarten in August and I would be home with baby while she was in school.
I'm still numb. I know it will take time.