Major meltdown.... (( happy update)))

dmosquera4

we'll as some of you may know I've been having major trouble with my emotions, I made an appointment with a therapist for tues because that's the earliest they had and she specializes in PPD I EBF and Brady has refused to nurse for the past week which means, I have been having to pump, which has now decreased my supply even more. WELL I just walked in the bathroom and got my period (I know no big deal) but to me it is because that means that Brady is done with me and that he doesn't need me anymore. I wanted to make to a year I wanted to nurse him as long a i could, but he now cries to the end of time when I put my boob in his mouth. I get bitten and punched. I'm so sad I haven't stopped crying since I went to the bathroom im trying to calm my self down but this is so hard.....

lokimau

(((( hug ))))

UnofficiallyLO

I'm sorry girl, hang in there! Hugs and side note- I've had my period since month 3 pp and I'm still BFing (and supplementing) so if you still want to, it's possible and if you don't or can't you should be proud you've made it 7 months! I hope Tuesday comes soon for you.

hlm184

*hugs*

nicole mackenzie

Hugs!

He still needs you! His mom is so much more than a source of food.

I hope that you've found a good councelor and she's able to help you feel better.

Hang in there!

MissWhis

My period came back at around 8 weeks pp. I was EBF and still am. I get a major drop in my supply in the 5+ days leading up to my period and there's been a few times my daughter has refused to nurse. She (and the supply) pick right back up a day or two after my period starts. But it sucks big time!

I also feel like I also have waaaaay worse PMS now than I did before. I'm pretty okay on emotions most of the month, but now the week before my period I'm a mess.

Get in a good cry and a good rest (if you can). I hope you are feeling better tomorrow.

MissWhis

Also - I read somewhere (LLL website, I think?) that a calcium/magnesium supplement taken for the last half of your cycle can help ease the pre-period supply drop. I've been doing it the past few months and it seems to help? Totally anecdotal, but maybe there are some things you can do to help ease that part of this.

Good luck, lady. Hang in there. And so glad you have that appointment on Tuesday! Good for you.

Talltrees82

I'm so sorry you are struggling. I know what it feels like and it's so hard. I'm glad that you have an appointment with a therapist, I really hope it helps you! Your LO will always need you, you're his momma and no one can fill that role the way you do! His needs will change as he gets older, which is natural. Hugs and I hope you feel better soon!

Merlyna04

I am glad the you have an appointment so soon, some times it takes for ever .
Remember when we have our period we change because our (hormones)
With my older child I nurse him for 10 months and I got my period 5 months pp.
>:D<

dmosquera4

It's just so hard I called my mom (she is in Florida) and she was trying to calm me down she made it to 2 years with me and I just feel like such a failure. I know it's not me but this hormones that you can't control are a bitch... I love my son and would do anything for him, but they definately don't tell you this when you get pregnant.

I really hope having that time with somebody that can help and letting everything out can help me. It does not help either when my husband doesn't understand what I'm going through, I know it's different for them I don't blame him for anything (even though he could be an ass sometimes)

I'm glad I can let this out here, even though it's just over the Internet, it helps me a little knowing that so many of you have been through this and are going strong.

Thank you again

AnnH74

The taste of breast milk can change when we have our period. It could be that your son is confused and doesn't like the new taste. Give it a few days-the taste changes back to the regular and your supply should rebound:) hang in there!!

Merlyna04

@dmosquera4‌ ygpm

dmosquera4

@celticlullaby thats exactly how i felt like i had no control... i know it will get better I'm counting down the hours for tomorrow. i am a little anxious, but know it will help me a lot .

chirico3

I got my period three months ago and still BF. LO doesn't like to nurse 3-4 days before it starts, but after a couple of days she starts again. When she refused my left breast a couple of weeks ago, I felt almost betrayed. I wouldn't have thought I'd feel this way!

Besides, as other posters have said, you are his mom. He'll need you for his Whole life, one way or another, so don't worry.

Hope therapy makes you feel better. Sometimes it's hard with little babies...

dmosquera4

after going to the therapist i feel i little bit better, not a hundred percent, but to actually talk to someone that can listen and help me through this feels good. she kept reminding that this doesn't last forever and with a lot of support from my family it will get easier.

she gave me a couple of exercises to do with hubby and also on my own.

i happy to report that all of you ladies were right about the nursing. LO has started to nurse again with a little bit of a fight but he is nursing and that makes me happy, 

thank you all for your support and guidance though this i really do appreciate it 

 

CalinAZ

yay! So glad he's nursing again and that therapy went well. I always found those "at home" exercises to be one of the best parts of therapy. It gave me a bit more control when everything felt crazy. 

Hope things continue to look up for you!

nicole mackenzie

Yay glad to hear it!