~*~*~ Multiple Loss Ladies 2014-11-18 ~*~*~

mara005

@MrsG80inTn - Great new plan! I know how hard it is when your life isn't how you planned it and the need to reinvision your life, it isn't easy. But you're an awesome (almost) 35 year old and 2015 is going to be a fresh start to this journey. Also, best of luck with your MIL!

@sunflwa - ((hugs)) FX this is your cycle.

@myfirstraspberry - Mega ((hugs))

@Nikolie93 - welcome to the check in, hopefully you can burn the bench in Dec. 

@O2girl - sounds like you have some great plans coming up!

@dawnstar898 - ((hugs)) about your cat. FX you O soon!

@Callalily30 - glad you're liking your assignment and you're adjusting well.

@GeorgiaDottie - ((hugs)) frustration is normal and sometimes you need to vent. Everyone has the right to be upset about this TTC rollercoaster.  

Nikolie93

@GeorgiaDottie You have every right to feel frustrated, it sucks *hug*

PinkCamino

lav17 said:

AFM: Sorry I am late and have been MIA lately... I am just not in a good spot right now and don't feel like I can give as much support.

*******Warning: pregnancy and baby mentioned (not mine)*******

My pregnant younger sister came for another 2-week visit with her 1 year-old. She just passed the first tri, but has been having some bleeding/spotting episodes. I've been torn between wanting to support her through this, but also just wanting to f**ing hide in a cave from all pregnant women and babies. I only wish the best to her family, but I cannot handle it at all. We are living with my parents right now, so I cannot tell her not to visit them and don't really have any place to run away. I've been going to the gym more and just trying to get out of the house as much as possible, but when my mom is at work, they needed me to babysit and help around. I'm glad it's over now, but she'll be back again over holidays and will probably be showing already. The thought of it just kills me. I was supposed to celebrate with my baby(ies), too, but I won't be. She has an AS before she will come next time, and if it's a girl, I feel like I'll just have a meltdown and will spoil everyone's holidays and then will feel horrible and guilty for my reaction. Job search isn't going so well either right now, so I feel like my life is at a stand still and I am stuck in a deep dark hole. I started temping last cycle just to be doing something to move forward while we are tta. There wasn't anything remarkable really, but pms, spotting and AF the last couple of days have made things seem even worse. So that's me right now... Fun times.

QOTW: I like the traditional cooking and baking that happens during holidays (I am from Eastern Europe, so that mostly means Christmas and Easter), but all the child-centered things are starting to get to me this year..

So many ((hugs)) You're in a really tough spot and it must be so hard. Just know that any reaction you have is totally justified so please do not beat yourself up about it.

Discouraged31

I just got my retrieval date scheduled for Sunday! I am nervous but hopeful we will have some healthy embryos! I can't help but feel very frustrated that we can't transfer until end of Jan due to office being closed on the holidays - of course they are closed the one week I would need them open! I feel like I am Always Waitinggg.. 

BookishMomma

@lav17‌ sending big ((hugs))

kyliehopeful

@pinkcamino

sorry for the delay in responding. Uni has been a little crazy at the moment!!

I have been ok. I may of found a possible egg donor for next year. They wont be ready until around july-august 2015 so hopefully my cycles are still regular by then.

Thanks for running this checkin