Yet another newie intro (I wrote a short novel...)
Hello Ladies!
I have been lurking this page for a few months now and have decided its time to sign up. I have been researching things like crazy but a lot of the time I find I am just not getting answers to my (what seems like) a million questions. So hopefully joining, and being able to participate in the forums I can get answers while also joining a support group of women.
A little about myself, well... A lot actually. Just so everyone knows "my deal" so to speak. I have had problems with Ovarian Cysts since I was 14, at the age of 16 I was put on the Depo Shot and thought, WOW this is amazing no AF ever!!! Well, at the age of 24 (this was in 2006) (still on the depo) I was told this could and probably has effected me in many ways, up to perhaps never having a normal cycle ever again. Shocked, I got off BC and was told to stay of BC until I started having normal cycles. I never had normal cycles till 2008. At this time I went and decided I wanted to go on BC but definitely not Depo. I was then put on the nuva ring (horrible) and was taken off of it in a year because I was experiencing horrible cramping before my AF. Then put on BC pills, then taken off them in 2010 because I was having even worse cramping and pain before AF. In 2011 after suffering for over a year and no one could figure out what was wrong with me I was sent to have a LAP, they found and removed Endometriosis as well as 5 cysts. After the surgery I was told that getting a Mirana was the best decision to help me not ovulate for awhile so that my body could "heal" itself. Although I was relieved that they finally figured out what was wrong with me and got it taken care of, I was a little worried about the Mirana. I had done some research and found some pretty disturbing things about it. However, knowing I did not want to ever have to go through the pain I had gone through the last year, I agreed to have the Mirana. This brings me to May of this year (I had the Mirana removed), I am not happily married and we want to begin to add to our family (we currently have a Cat my husband named Mustache...Don't ask... Don't know... She's a girl.... And a Dog named Olie). I went and got the Mirana removed and was told I should wait to TTC for 2 months, so we did. Right away I have AF's, been keeping track and I'm luckily a 28 day girl. in July I started using OPK's and temping (but I am guilty of totally forgetting on some days which basically makes it not very useful). I have never gotten a positive OPK. But I was told this could take up to one year for my body to get back to normal so I have been patiently waiting. However, in early September the craziest thing happened, I missed my AF, was 3 days late so I took a HPT... To my utter amazement I got a BFP!! I was elated, my DH was elated. This was on a Thursday, I had a faint second line, but a line is a line. I told my DH I wanted to buy a digital and take it Saturday Morning just to let the HCG levels rise a bit, we bought one and took it on Saturday morning to find a BFN... Heart broken I couldn't understand what happened.. I took another on Sunday BFN again. Went to see my Dr and was told that I probably had a chemical pregnancy. To say I was crushed is an understatement. The Dr told me wait a month and start trying again. This is the month we are to try again and I have to say, I am scared to death. I am so stressed out and I know that's not good. My DH (bless his heart) has been so supportive through all of my crying and moping around the last month. And hes super excited to start again this month, but I can't get my loss off my brain and fear of it happening again.
What has worked for any of you ladies to help calm yourself down??? Besides downing a bottle of my favorite type of wine... Tried that I ended up crying with horrible hiccups for hours
thanks so much for reading this!!!
Re: Yet another newie intro (I wrote a short novel...)
First, sorry for your loss. Welcome. If you haven't already, take a few and read the newbie blog located in the post at the top titled READ THIS FIRST.
Second, to the bolded, did you mean, "I am happily married?"
Oh my goodness!!!!! Thank you so much for pointing that out!!! Yes!!! I meant I am happily married!!!!! (insert heart attack), I'm sure I meant to type now.. Whoopsies.. thank you for catching that.
Also, I read the newbie blog, even wrote down some of the acronyms so I can have proper forum etiquette.. Hopefully I don't sound too horrible.
#:-STTC #1: 07/2014
TTC #1: Oct. 2014
Married: 10/4/2013
TTC Since September 2014
BFP 11/30/2014 ~ EDD 8/13/2015 ~ CP 12/5/2014
BFP #2 12/30/2014 ~ EDD 9/13/2015 Stick bean stick!
bibliothecary Oh my gosh I know right!!!! It scares me to even think what type of reaction I would have gotten .......
HippoTooth Thank you!
TRP85 Thank you!!! And, me too!
Wow, way to start off my first post.. I'm still uncomfortably laughing at myself
L-)The little guys, Shadow and Bobby (aka Shabby)
"I'm a lady with the vocabulary of a well-educated sailor."
miaawallace You are so right, I really have been... And thank you
jefa621 I have a sign too!!! It was my inspiration for my un!!! And my dog is/was the same way, we would open a beer and he'd sit!!! Had to break him of that.... No more beer for him
Sorry to hear about your loss, your nervousness is well understood. Welcome to TTGP!
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@lovegrilledcheese thank you
Haha! We've all made mistakes at some point. I did initially side-eye, that's why I asked. I'm glad you are happily married.
2. I love your sn. +2 points for you.
3. I'm with everyone else on the not/now typo. First thought "girl get your flame suit on".
Welcome, dogbeers!
@nandaboob06 oh my gosh I had the hugest gulp when that was caught like oh wow I'm going to get blasted!!! Thank goodness it was caught and I was able to fix that!!! PHEW!!! And thank you!
Moderate-Severe Endo
Hypothyroidism
Surgery 2/10- successful
"It is better to light a candle than curse the darkness." - Eleanor Roosevelt
Sorry for your loss and all you've been through.
P.S. I am glad you are happily married.
ME: 30, DH: 30
Love: 2/11/04 Marriage: 5/29/11
2 Cat Furbabies: Chloe and Zoey (2007)
TTC #1: 6/1/14
BFP: 11/25/14 EDD: 8/5/15