Today was a pretty bad day... 1. My hemorrhoids are acting up. 2. I think I'm trying to get a yeast infection. 3. My Hubby's out of town for work. 4. I'm fighting depression because of losing the baby. I'm trying not to dwell but sometimes switching gears in the brain just doesn't work. Its easier said than done. 5. I decide to get Publix cake during lunch to cheer myself up. After all there is nothing Publix cake can't cure. 6. A coworker comments about me being prego and getting to eat anything I want. Yeah...there goes that cake. Had to explain to them that I lost the baby. Then they thought I was lying or joking. Guess my tears gave away the truth? 7. Come home and its 90° in my house. 8. My AC isn't working because now its only 84° and I've been home for a good 7 hours. 9. Then I got to thinking I'd love to soak in a nice cool bath....wait can't do that because of the D&C. 10. Then I get to thinking how much more miserable and cranky I'd be if I was still prego. 11. Then I start crying wishing I could just be that miserable right now because I'd do it in a heart beat to get my baby back!!
Re: Amazing how it hits you...
Off bcp and ttc 9/1/13
bfp 7/20/14, m/c 7/23
will ttc again 8/14
@Jenspin73 when I went for my first u/s I should have been 8wks but hey said 6wks. When I sent back 2wks later for a follow up u/s because the heart beat was on the low side they said the baby had not grown and there was no longer a heart beat. I should have been around 10wks because I can just about pinpoint when I ovulated within 24-48 hours depending on when the sperm met the egg. This was my second pregnancy though. I had my dauhter who is now 8 2wks after I turned 19. Funny how this ones due date would have been 6days before my daughters bday had the Dr not of pushed it back because the baby was measuring 2wks behind. And I was stressing that it would start sibling rivalry and show up on my oldest bday or I'd be in the hospital on her bday. That seems so petty now. Sorry...I actually had my d&c last Thursday. I wanted to get it over with. This week has proven to be worse than last week. I think its because my husband isn't here (he gave me strength last week) and I feel so alone. Just a heads up for the d&c make sure u eat plenty of fiber before hand and after cuz it took me 3 days before I had to poop after the procedure and now t has my system all messed up. The pain pills they gave me got me constipated.