Intro (living children mentioned)

lalove23

Hello, I've thought about joining this board many times the past few weeks but it's like I've had a mental block and couldn't think of anything to write although I have so much going on in my head. Last May, right before my lo's first birthday I got a BFP. and after several ultrasounds and blood draws I was diagnosed with a suspected ectopic pregnancy. I waited as long as I could and even switched doctors hoping they would be able to give me a definite answer, but they just couldn't see anything and my hcg was hovering. Eventually I was treated with 2 separate does of methotrexate and was told to wait awhile to get pregnant. Just when we started trying again I came down with bell's palsy and had to be on meds so that delayed ttc for another 6 months. I got a BFP this past May and had a natural miscarriage at 7 weeks. My ob said both losses weren't related and I should just try again. Well, I ended up having a chemical pregnancy last week which was before I even had a period from my last MC. I know the CP was probably a result of my uterus lining being too thin or so everyone tells me, but my anxiety is at an all time high right now. 

Now I'm questioning if all of this is related, and my ob is so relaxed about everything that I insisted on seeing a specialist although she doesn't think I need too yet. She's trying to keep me focused on the fact I've had one healthy pregnancy so these are most likely flukes or bad luck.

Sorry this is long. I've attempted the bump before but I'm not the least bit social media savvy but I'll try to find my way around and learn the rules as I go. I so desperately need support right now from people who understand how I'm feeling. 

KingLED

I"m so sorry for your losses. If you're not comfortable with the way your doctor is handling things, if you think she's too relaxed, I would really recommend finding a new doctor. I'm sorry you're having to deal with all this.

lalove23

EllyD14 said:

I"m so sorry for your losses. If you're not comfortable with the way your doctor is handling things, if you think she's too relaxed, I would really recommend finding a new doctor. I'm sorry you're having to deal with all this.

Thank you. I scheduled an appointment with a specialist for next week, so I hope to get some answers. I just read some of your blog and I have to say, reading about everything you've been through, I truly admire your strength and determination!

mrsjg2013

I'm very sorry for your losses.  My suggestion was going to be to see a Reproductive Endocrinologist, but sounds like you're already set up with a specialist.  It's a strange feeling, not wanting them to find anything wrong because of what that may mean, but also kind of wanting them to find something so that they can "fix" it.  I hope you find support and comfort amongst the amazing ladies here and also that your doctor's appointment next week goes well. 

stephy1221

I am so sorry for your losses.