I shouldn't go over to SAIF (SAIFW)

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I usually don't, but, I'm bored tonight and wandered over there and, honestly, it just made me feel really sad.  I "know" so many of the women over there and I'm thrilled that they get to be there and not here, but, it just made me really, really sad that I've traveled this road for so long and don't know if it will ever lead me there.

theworms

I'm so sorry for all you've been through.  I truly hope this journey brings you your miracle very soon. 

It can be tough to so to SaIF, I lurk more and more as more of the girls I know are over there, it's hard, so happy for them and wondering when it will be your turn.

((HUGS))

Echloe

I don't know why but going over there always made me feel better. I loved to read all the siggys and see that even after going to hell and back the women there were happy and excited about their pregnancies and babies. ?It made me feel like I had a chance. ?I only lurked up until last week though.

I pray that you'll be a regular over there soon. ?(((HUGS)))?

Mrs.Babbsy

I go over there because I know more ladies over there than I do here now. It's time to move over already. I am so ready.

duke'sgirl

I know what you mean! I rarely post unless it is someone I "know", but I lurk daily. I love looking at their bellies growing and tickers moving and ADORABLE babies, but it is always in the back of my mind, "Will I ever get to be over here as anything more than a lurker?" You're not alone. ((hugs))

duke'sgirl

Mrs.Babbsy:

I go over there because I know more ladies over there than I do here now. It's time to move over already. I am so ready.

A-freakin-MEN!!

lnle

I'm with you. I feel like I had a taste of the "other side" when I was pg for a few weeks, and I can't wait to get back. Most days I don't feel sad when I lurk, but some days I do.

kimarino13

I like to check up on the ladies that cycled with me to see how their pregnancies are going.  If IVF #1 worked, I would have recently found out the sex, just like they all have.  Yeah, I get sad sometimes, but I am trying really hard not to feel sorry for myself.  I just have to keep hoping that one day we will all be over there too.

Mrs.Babbsy

kimarino13:

I like to check up on the ladies that cycled with me to see how their pregnancies are going.  If IVF #1 worked, I would have recently found out the sex, just like they all have.  Yeah, I get sad sometimes, but I am trying really hard not to feel sorry for myself.  I just have to keep hoping that one day we will all be over there too.

 

This is why I am afraid to have a cycle buddy. I don't want to compare with anyone.

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kimarino13:

I like to check up on the ladies that cycled with me to see how their pregnancies are going.  If IVF #1 worked, I would have recently found out the sex, just like they all have.  Yeah, I get sad sometimes, but I am trying really hard not to feel sorry for myself.  I just have to keep hoping that one day we will all be over there too.

See, maybe that's why it's so hard for me.  People I cycled with during my second IVF (in real life) have now had their SECOND child. 

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Mrs.Babbsy:

kimarino13:

I like to check up on the ladies that cycled with me to see how their pregnancies are going.  If IVF #1 worked, I would have recently found out the sex, just like they all have.  Yeah, I get sad sometimes, but I am trying really hard not to feel sorry for myself.  I just have to keep hoping that one day we will all be over there too.

 

This is why I am afraid to have a cycle buddy. I don't want to compare with anyone.

I hear you.  The "cycle buddy" (unofficial) that I had during IVF #4 and #5 now has a 2 month old......

kimarino13

LBR_NJ:

See, maybe that's why it's so hard for me.  People I cycled with during my second IVF (in real life) have now had their SECOND child. 

That breaks my heart.

smilee

there is someone on SAIF ( who I ADRORE, she really is so sweet and checks on me) that was literally in the waiting room with me at NYU- on both retrieval and transfer day. ?She is pregnant and I had a c/p. ?When I see her ticker I am happy for her but can;t helping thinking "wow, I would literally be that pregnant". ?

There is certainly a core group on here that I "know", but MANY have moved on ( which is a good thing!)

I just can't wait for it to be us!?

Mrs.Babbsy

I'm sorry LBR. {{HUGS}}

 

frustrated and ttc

i sometimes go over there just to see what they are talking about. I guess in some strange way i imagine myself posting about the cool stuff they just bought or the feelings that come with being pg. I hope our day comes soon.

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There is a group of NJ girls who all went through this together.  I was in the waiting room with many of them at RMA through many cycles.  We have a separate Yahoo group where we offer support to one another, but most of us know one another in person.  At this point, I am the ONLY one left who has not either had a baby or currently pregnant and in at least her 2nd trimester.  Just me.  Me and about 25 babies.

Sorry, I'm just feeling sorry for myself tonight....

schmoodle

I'm so sorry - to all of you. It's so hard watching people move on. Even now, being on SAIF again, it still is very painful for me sometimes to see the baby pics of my BFP buddies from my pregnancy with our Doodles - especially the twins. I know it's not quite the same though. (((HUGS))) to all of you.

smilee

LBR_NJ:

There is a group of NJ girls who all went through this together.? I was in the waiting room with many of them at RMA through many cycles.? We have a separate Yahoo group where we offer support to one another, but?most of us?know one another in person.? At this point, I am the ONLY one left who has not either had a baby or currently pregnant and in at least her 2nd trimester.? Just me.? Me and about 25 babies.

Sorry, I'm just feeling sorry for myself tonight....

I so hope that you get your miracle soon. ?It is OK to feel sorry for yourself every now and again. ?I can't wait to see YOU posting on SAIF!!!!

Hang in there, sweetie!?

Karma1969

I just wanted to say that I hope all of you get over there (and stay) very soon.

skoorbnibor

Lisa, I am so sorry. I don't have to tell you that all the girls on TTTC are always in our thoughts and since we once stood in your shoes, most of us can empathize. I can't wait for the day that you all can stand with your families, however the family is made.

It is just not right. I know I can't do anything, but I wanted you to know that we all as a community feel the same way. We want you all to be able to have what you all (and we all) wish so desperately for. I remember that almost phsycial pain of my IVF#1 cycle buddies bfps and their first u/s. It was agony. I never thought with all my issues I would ever be able to see past those days. It is a very dark place

Thinking of you. 

MerryMarisa

Oh LBR, I'm so sorry.  Since I found this board, I've had two BFP's, both ending in m/c/.  I remember the women who got their BFP's around the time as me - seeing their tickers or pics of their babies gives me hope and also reminds me of own losses.  It's so hard.  I hope all of us will find our way to SAIF soon.  Lots of hugs to you.

mybobble

I used to lurk over there. I never posted because I couldn't answer any of the questions. I also went there because I "knew" so many girls over there (seems like more there than here). It's been nice seeing the updates and all of their beautiful babies. It's been wks since I was last over there because I find it much to hard now. Some of them are now pg w/ baby #2 while I still struggle to get pg w/ #1. I know I'll never graduate to that board so I've decided to stop tourchering myself and I've stopped lurking.

JackieMac824

I feel the same way sometimes - I am so happy for the women over there - I just wish I could join them.