I had my last doctors appointment today. I thought I would be so relieved and finally be able to move on and put this past me (at least physically). But for some reason it brought up a whole slew of emotions. I almost started crying talking to the midwife (that I have seen three times now since my MC was discovered. Even though I was fully prepared to talk with her, something about it just reminded me of how real all of this is.) I just felt like it was the final nail in the coffin (maybe a bad analogy for this board, but I can't think of another that's fitting). Sometimes all of this feels surreal, but today was just a reminder of how real it was. I was really pregnant, and my baby is really gone. I can't even fully explain the feeling. Anyone else feel this way after their final appointment? The midwife also told me that the pathology looked "great". I can't help but think to myself "how can anything look GREAT in this situation? If it were "great" I'd still have my baby". Ugh.
TTC since 5/13