Ok, so I'm not actually "new", I've been a member since September 2011, but I'm just now have the courage to write this little story. I haven't even been on here since I had my miscarriage, which was roughly two years ago. I'll try not to make my story too long...
It was May 24, 2012 and I had been feeling off for a few days already, very crampy and light bleeding. I decided to leave jury duty and fly over to a bigger hospital (I live on a small island in Alaska). They fit me in right away which was wonderful, but I did not recieve wonderful news during the ultrasound. I had seen my tiny bundle of joy just a week earlier, and there was even a heartbeat! This time I looked at the screen and I didn't need the OB to tell me something was wrong. My baby's heart was no longer beating... My heart sank to depths I didn't even know existed. My baby was supposed to measure about 8 wks, but only measured 6 wks 5days. I started bleeding heavily later that day, and was able to miscarry naturally, but it was the most terrible experience. I think the worst part was knowing I was losing my baby and there was absolutely nothing I could do to stop it.
Now I'm almost 22 (I was 19 at the time), and I still have bad days now and again but I'm doing much better. I try to look at it as something that made me stronger, much stronger.
I salute all you ladies that have had to bear this pain.
Thank you for reading my story, and I hope you all have a good day!