I bled for like a week and was hoping that was it, but apparently not. It's been a long time since I've just let it happen instead of getting a D&C and it's so much worse than I remember. Yesterday I was cramping so bad I just stayed in bed with a heating pad most of the day. I have my next beta on Wed, so hopefully it's down quite a bit. I just want this to be over with. It's been almost 2 weeks since we saw their hearts had stopped and it still hurts (emotionally) like it was this morning. Of course I have my ups and downs, but I could really use a few more ups about now.
I was supposed to see the RE on Friday for more RPL testing, but that appt was set up after my last loss and since now I'm dealing with another loss that's so recent they don't want me to come in until my beta is back to 0. But by the time that happens it won't even be worth going in for testing because we're moving across the country (from IN to OR) at the end of April. So now I get to wait until I get there and find doctors and get referrals and sit on waiting lists forever. We're not even sure we want to try again, but we don't want to rule it out until we've seen the RE to get as many chances of getting an answer as we can.
Unfortunately, that means I'm stuck somewhere in the middle not sure if we're going to attempt to TTC again or if we're going to end up CFNBC. I feel like I can't really move on with my life not knowing what to expect. I just feel so incredibly defeated right now.
I'm sorry for whining so much, but I just don't know who else to talk to right now. This whole thing is just frustrating, which I'm sure you all understand.