Hi. As you can see from my signature. it’s been a long & emotional several years of infertility treatments & and a painful loss at 16wks. We just did our last FET (no more frozens remaining) and asking ourselves do we continue down this IVF path searching for new treatments, a possible clinic change… which is an emotional & financial roller coaster. Or do we start to move down the adoption path. I feel selfish continuing to spend money and putting my husband and I thru the emotional roller coaster if we should look to other options and move towards a baby that needs us thru adoption.
When did you know that it was time to hang up the fertility treatment process and move to something else? Coming off this last failed cycle when we’ve tried it all has left us feeling raw emotionally.
Re: Need advice... when to stop fertility treatments and move to adoption?
A few things I would recommend:
1. Give yourselves some time to take a break, catch your breath, and grieve
2. Feel each other out about adoption. Are you both on board? Any significant barriers to address? What is your reasoning to adopt?
3. Process your adoption through the lens of IF. Adopting After Infertility is outdated as far as the adoption sections go, but the upfront chapters on choosing your path after IF are still applicable
4. IMO it doesn't hurt to do some research, talk to people, and see if this is the right path for you
GL
I am truly sorry for your loss. We went through five losses total but our last one was at 17 weeks. Its an indescribable pain and I"m truly sorry you experienced it. Best wishes!!
5 Angels
Do we want to be parents? Yup
What matters the most is that my husband and I are mindful of our feelings and we are open and honest with each other on how we are feeling. You will know when the right time is. Take the time to grieve and be mindful of your relationship together! Some day you'll have a little one to love!
I have to be honest and say looking back now that I wasn't 100% ready for adoption when we first switched from the IF path. MH was completely on board, but I was still working through my feelings of loss and grieving. It's a strange thing to grieve silently about what you lose through IF since it's the lost intangibles that hurt the most and it so deeply affects your dreams and sense of self (or at least that's how I felt).
I was fortunate that 1. the adoption process takes time, so I had time to work through my feelings and 2. my agency recommended I read The Open Adoption Experience which had a good chapter on grieving for IF. It took me months of reading and re-reading this section to process what I was going through and feel normal and ok. I would recommend finding a good book on grieving after IF, even if you don't decide to move ahead with adoption. I would second PP's that it's important to take time before jumping into the adoption process.
For me it helped to know that IVF, DE or Embryo adoption will always be out there as options if someday we want to try pursuing that for our next child. It is good to be open minded and not force yourself to stay on a path when it doesn't feel right any longer.
1/13 Decided to pursue DIA, 4/13 Home study Approved 9/13 Matched!
10/13 DS home with us! 2/14 TPR completed 5/14 ADOPTION IS FINAL!
3/14 Surprise BFP 11/14 DD is here!
One caveat, my first therapist seemed to think that I wasn't getting pregnant because I wanted it too badly. She got fired QUICK, and I found someone supportive. I hope you don't mind this suggestion- it's just been a really positive thing for me.