I had my tubes tied after the birth of my third daughter. She was a c-section, so I decided to have a tubal done at the same time. I regretted the decision later on, thinking that maybe I should have had a 4th child. But I knew that in every aspect, we just shouldn't have another one. I do not have good pregnancies, and financially, we really couldn't have another. On February 12, 14 months after my tubal was done, I found out I was pregnant. I was completely shocked. I couldn't believe it was happening. I went to the doctor the next day for blood work. The numbers looked good.
Then the following Monday I had more blood work, and my numbers were going up and looking good. Friday I went for an ultrasound and blood work. We saw a gestational sac, but nothing else, but that was normal for 5w4d according to my doctor. Today, I went back for more blood work and an ultrasound. We could see the yolk sac, so I was hopeful. I was relieved it was intrauterine, rather than ectopic. However, about an hour later the nurse called and said from Friday to today, my betas only went up 19. She said the doctor said I will miscarry. I have to go in Thursday for more bloodwork and another ultrasound.
My heart hurts. After the shock wore off, the excitement started to build. I was going to have another little baby, and I was beyond thrilled. Now I am just heartbroken.
I'm sorry that we are here with losses, but I am comforted that I am not alone in my heartache.