Just checking in

jaztastic

Hey All... I don't have anything super special to announce or ask. I just wanted to check in and say hello. I don't post as much as I would like to, and most of the time it's because I really don't have much to say. I've been doing this song and dance so long, that all my questions are answered from trial and error or through research. But I think developing relationships here is important and extend beyond simply "say congrats to me because today was a good day" or the reverse when things are bad, so I wanted to drop in and add some extra info about me today. I hope everyone enjoyed their V day, and did as little or a much as their heart desired. Which for me was staying snuggled in bed with DH most of the day. We have dinner plans tonight but I don't think I'm up to it. DH and I got married April of 07, and while I wasn't on BC, in my mind I wanted to officially start TTC February of 08. I wanted a Valentines Conceived baby... Or at least that would be my story when I announced. So in some ways this is my 6yr anniversary of trying to have a family. I just did my ER on Tuesday and I thought about how tomorrow would have been my ET, and finally I would get to announce that Valentines "conceived" baby.. But of course even that's not happening. We go through so much as IF'ers and we get robbed of things that don't seem important or special until it can never happen for you. Like "surprise" we are having a baby, or "we conceived our baby on X day". Some of us even have even been robbed intimacy.... In any event I just want you all to know that I'm with you! I know your pain! I have your struggles (even if I don't post it). I appreciate having a place like this with all of you. Have a good weekend!

doglover1234

Hello! Thanks for sharing what is on your heart. It's funny how certain days/seasons/mile markers can conjure certain emotions - I think we have all experienced that along out journeys and certainly feel y

doglover1234

Your hurt. This is such a wonderful community of women who support one another and I'm so grateful to have a place where we all feel loved, accepted and most of all, understood.

Hope you enjoy the rest of your weekend jaztaz1

jaztastic

Thanks a mil, it's appreciated

Tea+

Hey there! I don't chime in as much either. I only have mobile devices atm and it's a bit hard. Lol and with work being busy I can't hop in like I would have. Lol. We didn't do much for Vday except spend time together eating chocolate and watching tv. Been a bit much since we out oop. Anyway, I wanted to say hello as well and thank you for sharing. It is tough especially around holidays. Keeping you in my thoughts and good luck in your Journey! [:

HopefulSoul2

It is amazing and so awesome how these forums and discussion topics become so important to us during these struggles. I personaly wouldn't know what to do without the Bump.  You women have pulled me through some dark days and you lift my spirits when I need it the most.  My DH is so wonderful and supportive but I know he can't even begin to understand what I am going through.  I try to stay strong in front of him because he is so kind and gentle and he would fall apart if he thought I was struggling. I can't thank you girls enough.  You will never know how much your support, kind words, prayers and positive vibes really mean to me.

Thanks Hearts!  Fingers crossed for those about to join us on this journey and for those currently on the rollercoaster.  Huge, huge hugs for those who need them. 

jaztastic

@HopefulSoul2 well said! I use multiple sites (BabyCenter & What To Expect) as well as The Bump. Each offers something different but I totally agree that without the support I would be lost.

RunCC37

Hi jaztaz, nice to hear your take on things IF has robbed us all of so much, but the detoured course has brought us to see things we would have missed without it. Namely, meeting you girls!! For me, it also has strengthened my marriage. I really feel like we could handle anything (though, I pray the universe doesn't accept that as a challenge!!!)

MrsC430

 Hi JazTaz! I hear you - my DH and I have been together for 8 years, married for almost 3. We were so hopeful for a 'honeymoon baby' (as corny as that sounds). Our 3rd wedding anniversary is coming up in April, and I can't help but reflect on how different our reality is vs. what we had hoped/planned for. 

 Like PPs have said, I do think this process has taught me a lot about my strength and willpower. I've also learned a lot about living in the moment. At the start of our treatment, I used to always think ahead and stress myself out with all of the what ifs. Trying to take things day by day now, and not worry about what tomorrow may bring. Today we're at the start of a new FET cycle, and life is good. That's what matters!

 I enjoyed reading your thoughts. I hope you enjoyed your weekend