Idk if this is appropriate to post or not.. but i'm having a hard time today so here goes.
I had a mmc in October resulting in a d&c. That was my husband and my only pregnancy to date.
We have been ttc since the go-ahead from our doctor. (This is the second cycle). I got pregnant the 2nd cycle last time, so this second cycle is churning up thoughts and emotions like crazy.
I, like everyone else here, want a baby. I am fearful of a second loss. I know my body is able to become pregnant, but I have no assurance it can stay pregnant. I know this sounds awful cynical for someone with 1 loss as opposed to so many others who have suffered more than me. But I can't help feeling both excited and terrified. This cycle would mean a Halloween baby... my FAVORITE holiday.... ugh so torn between hope and fear
I'm just looking to know that others have similar feelings.. and its ok to feel the way I do.
Sorry for the rant. Thanks for reading on
3rd pregnancy -- 1st baby -- praying for a rainbow
#1 EDD 5/2014 -- MMC 10weeks ~~ #2 EDD 10/2014 -- Our baby girl, born sleeping 17weeks ~~ #3 EDD 8/2015