Today is LO first day at daycare AND I have to be out of town all day for a meeting that starts early. So DH has to handle everything on his own including morning routine because she is still sleeping. I hope he's got this handled! And I don't get to see my baby off for her first day ::mobile sad face::
Oh, I thought we turned the corner with sleep because Saturday night he slept a blissful 11.5 hours with only two brief wakeups. But, sadly last night I lost count with the number of times he screamed bloody murder. Which I think was his teeth bothering him, poor thing. So after some midnight ibuprofen and one more wakeup, he was still sleeping when I left for work at 6:45. Pleaseohplease sleep tonight, LO. Please.
We had to start adding Rice cereal in LOs bottles and now he not wanting to eat like he should. He goes extra 2 with out eating and sometimes only eats half of what he was before we started. I cut back and am only adding 1 Tbsp so its not like I'm adding a whole bunch. Just more stress on top of the stress I'm already dealing with. I'm not sure if its the rice cereal doing it or the new medicine he got put on too.
It was awesome visiting my new niece out of town over the weekend, but this morning, it feels like I haven't had a weekend. This going to be a long week.
I started having an anxiety attack last night. as I was falling asleep, my mind started to wander and I ended up think about the most horrible things happening to my little girl.
Once my DH calmed me down I couldn't get comfy and probably sleep about 3 hours total.
My lo decided 4:45 was a good time to get up....she's basically been up ever since.
Last night was the first in six months that my DH didn't get up with M once! I can't really blame him, he's got a cold, took meds which knock him on his a$$ and he's already a heavy sleeper. But WTH, now he's all "I'm gonna die" with his stupid man cold and I feel like a zombie takin care of 2 babies.
DS
started having nightmares this weekend. Friday night I secretly loved it
because he wanted me to sleep in bed with him (he is 3 so cuddles are normally out). But it’s been every night the last three nights and between DD
normal MOTN waking and him I am exhausted.
A co-worker has twins 2 weeks younger than DD so we chat baby a lot but she is starting to drive me crazy with her complaining and one-upping. I get that twins must be very difficult but its not like I am twiddling my thumbs at home with a 3 year old and a baby either. Everything is NOT a competition.
I really want to get DD baptized. I talked to DH about and he agrees but he's worried that if we baptize her in my church, his dad's side of the family will get offended. IDGAF about what they think; I would rather have her baptized in the faith I grew up in instead of a church that neither one of us are affiliated with. I already conceded to not get married in my church and to not have alcohol at our wedding so as not to offend these people so I don't want to compromise. He's going to think about it and ask his brother for advice but I'm going to be really pissed if he decides that what his ignorant family thinks is more important.
I used to love listening to podcasts- specifically the "how stuff works" ones, like "stuff mom never told you". Finally decided to start listening to them again at work. bad idea. These girls are SO negative about breastfeeding, co-sleeping and also they are saying natural childbirth is only med-free. I'm irrational about it but it's bugging me about their tone.
ETA: OMG They just said that the experience of a med-free birth stays with a mother LONGER than any other type. OH FFS.
Our lil' diva: late like her Momma: 40 weeks 5 days!
Oh, I thought we turned the corner with sleep because Saturday night he slept a blissful 11.5 hours with only two brief wakeups. But, sadly last night I lost count with the number of times he screamed bloody murder. Which I think was his teeth bothering him, poor thing. So after some midnight ibuprofen and one more wakeup, he was still sleeping when I left for work at 6:45. Pleaseohplease sleep tonight, LO. Please.
My Younger sister's due date was Wednesday of last week and I still have not heard if she has had the baby yet. I've called and texted and no answers. She is my half sister and we have different moms and hers is all kinds of crazy. My mom was the second wife but because my dad choose to adopt me her mom has this vendetta against me. So, no doubt I won't be told when the baby is born, which is sad. My sister and I are pretty close when her mom isn't around and this is my first niece/nephew so I'm excited
L basically weaned himself over the holidays, my supply was never super awesome and it just dwindled more and more. Before I had him I wasn't all that sure that I wanted to breastfeed and now I'm shocked by how upset I am that we're done. I know it's silly but I feel like I have to feel out a different relationship with him, find new ways to comfort him. I was actually relieved that he was super mommy-centric this weekend because I had (have, let's be honest) this stupid fear that I won't be as important to him anymore. And, I feel completely guilty, like if I didn't skip that one pump session, or if I had just drank enough water, I wouldn't have lost my supply. Again so stupid since he's been on at least some formula forever and I never had any problem with him having formula but that shit is so expensive! And this turned into a rant, sorry. In close, mommy-hood has made me completely irrational.
Some of you may have read that I was planning to do the Disney marathon yesterday. I got LO's stuff together and went and spent Saturday night at my mom's house so I could take care of MOTN feedings until I had to leave for the marathon at 3am. I got up to leave at 3 and promptly fell down the last three stairs and wrenched my back.
Long story short - I'm stupid. Never walk down stairs in the dark before you plan to run a race. And no marathon for me.
No, physical therapist, it's cool that you're always at least twenty minutes late every single week. I don't take extra time to get my child ready and make sure he naps and eats at the perfect times so that he can get the most out of therapy. He isn't dressed early and my house isn't extra clean and there is no reason for you to be on time.
**** SPOILER ALERT FOR HOMELAND FANS WHO HAVEN'T WATCHED THE FINALE ****
SCREW YOU SHOWTIME!!!!
Why on EARTH would you kill of Brody?! WHY?? He IS the show! Sure, Carrie is another main key to the show, but Brody and Carrie ARE THE SHOW. TOGETHER! Now what? I get to watch her have nervous breakdowns b/c she's a new mom and she's going to Turkey to do some thing that will get her closer to the dude in Iran. COME ON. STUPID STORYLINE SHOWTIME.
Now if you hook her up with Quinn, I am TOTALLY on board. I love his sexy ass and would LOVE to see him naked. Yes please and thank you.
ETA: I FINALLY watched the finale last night. Little man barely gives us any breaks. And FTR: Screw you Fox News for spoiling the damn ending for me by allowing a viewer to ask the Q "Are you still going to watch homeland with Brody dead" asshat.
ETAA: I really thought he was going to live.. I thought at the very end when Carrie's boss called her to his office they were going to be like SURPRISE! He IS ALIVE!!! We were just playing... That's why we didn't want to put his star on the wall. GOT YA!" :-(
Super sad panda today man. Super sad.
SURPRISE! BFP: 12/2014 - EDD: 8/13/15
We made plans and God laughed
DS: BFP: 9/30/12 - EDD: 6/9/13
Radley Quinn was fashionably late via induction on 6/17/13
@BunnyLove416 Aw, don't beat yourself up!! I'm in the middle of weaning myself and it's HARD. It's like the one trick you had up your sleeve is gone and now we have to figure it out all over again. It's emotionally draining, but just know that he loves you no matter what. I want to give you a hug, bc I was exactly in your shoes with my first. Breastfeeding worked out for the first 3 months, to my surprise, but pumping is what killed my supply. Even though I wasn't 100% convinced it's what I wanted to do, once it was going, going, gone I got choked up even saying it out loud. You did an amazing job, and still are
From a formula feeding mom - I comfort N with a bottle that has a slow flow nipple (she is now on fast) and 2oz of formula. Or I put her in my carrier. You're such good moms, I'm sure you'll find what you need to comfort your LOs quickly!
I buy the Kirkland brand formula from Costco. It's way cheaper and goes on sale regularly. Plus, it's twice the size of similac and cost less. Good Luck!!
**** SPOILER ALERT FOR HOMELAND FANS WHO HAVEN'T WATCHED THE FINALE ****
SCREW YOU SHOWTIME!!!!
Why on EARTH would you kill of Brody?! WHY?? He IS the show! Sure, Carrie is another main key to the show, but Brody and Carrie ARE THE SHOW. TOGETHER! Now what? I get to watch her have nervous breakdowns b/c she's a new mom and she's going to Turkey to do some thing that will get her closer to the dude in Iran. COME ON. STUPID STORYLINE SHOWTIME.
Now if you hook her up with Quinn, I am TOTALLY on board. I love his sexy ass and would LOVE to see him naked. Yes please and thank you.
ETA: I FINALLY watched the finale last night. Little man barely gives us any breaks. And FTR: Screw you Fox News for spoiling the damn ending for me by allowing a viewer to ask the Q "Are you still going to watch homeland with Brody dead" asshat.
ETAA: I really thought he was going to live.. I thought at the very end when Carrie's boss called her to his office they were going to be like SURPRISE! He IS ALIVE!!! We were just playing... That's why we didn't want to put his star on the wall. GOT YA!" :-(
Super sad panda today man. Super sad.
Omg, all of these words! These were my thoughts exactly!
@BunnyLove416 Aw, don't beat yourself up!! I'm in the middle of weaning myself and it's HARD. It's like the one trick you had up your sleeve is gone and now we have to figure it out all over again. It's emotionally draining, but just know that he loves you no matter what. I want to give you a hug, bc I was exactly in your shoes with my first. Breastfeeding worked out for the first 3 months, to my surprise, but pumping is what killed my supply. Even though I wasn't 100% convinced it's what I wanted to do, once it was going, going, gone I got choked up even saying it out loud. You did an amazing job, and still are
And you're right, that shit is expensive!
@LiLi23 I can't thank you enough for this, it made me feel so much better
I'm going to be lonely as well. The reason that LO is going to start daycare is my husband is going back to work. He works second and I first so I will never see him. Oh and he works Saturdays so Sunday is our only day together.
@murphie82 that sucks, BUT maybe it saved you from hurting yourself worse? When things go wrong like that I like to think it was fate saving me from something worse. I went running yesterday and 4 miles was super awful and I honestly thought if you and hoped you had survived! Internet creepy, I know. Hopefully your back is already feeling better! I don't really have a lot to bitch about today thank god!
@calikat80 I'm completely with you about fate saving me from something worse. I was really torn about the situation. Of course I was sad, but I was also a little relieved. I had no business going out and running a marathon so falling down those stairs probably did save me from something worse. I just wish I could have made the decision not to run without having to fall down some stairs.
My back only had a few twinges of pain, but for the most part, I felt pretty good all day. Much better than if I had run the marathon.
Good for you for going out and running four miles. I've found running to be the hardest part of post pregnancy for me. It's not quite the same, but I'm hoping it will get better with time.
Re: Monday Bitchfest
DS1 2-26-07
#4 Due May 2015
IT'S A BOY
Once my DH calmed me down I couldn't get comfy and probably sleep about 3 hours total.
My lo decided 4:45 was a good time to get up....she's basically been up ever since.
I have two:
DS started having nightmares this weekend. Friday night I secretly loved it because he wanted me to sleep in bed with him (he is 3 so cuddles are normally out). But it’s been every night the last three nights and between DD normal MOTN waking and him I am exhausted.
A co-worker has twins 2 weeks younger than DD so we chat baby a lot but she is starting to drive me crazy with her complaining and one-upping. I get that twins must be very difficult but its not like I am twiddling my thumbs at home with a 3 year old and a baby either. Everything is NOT a competition.
I really want to get DD baptized. I talked to DH about and he agrees but he's worried that if we baptize her in my church, his dad's side of the family will get offended. IDGAF about what they think; I would rather have her baptized in the faith I grew up in instead of a church that neither one of us are affiliated with. I already conceded to not get married in my church and to not have alcohol at our wedding so as not to offend these people so I don't want to compromise. He's going to think about it and ask his brother for advice but I'm going to be really pissed if he decides that what his ignorant family thinks is more important.
my read shelf:
I'm irrational about it but it's bugging me about their tone.
ETA: OMG They just said that the experience of a med-free birth stays with a mother LONGER than any other type. OH FFS.
Our lil' diva: late like her Momma: 40 weeks 5 days!
Our lil' diva: late like her Momma: 40 weeks 5 days!
Long story short - I'm stupid. Never walk down stairs in the dark before you plan to run a race. And no marathon for me.
I'm not new. I just hate The Bump.
**** SPOILER ALERT FOR HOMELAND FANS WHO HAVEN'T WATCHED THE FINALE ****
SCREW YOU SHOWTIME!!!!
Why on EARTH would you kill of Brody?! WHY?? He IS the show! Sure, Carrie is another main key to the show, but Brody and Carrie ARE THE SHOW. TOGETHER! Now what? I get to watch her have nervous breakdowns b/c she's a new mom and she's going to Turkey to do some thing that will get her closer to the dude in Iran. COME ON. STUPID STORYLINE SHOWTIME.
Now if you hook her up with Quinn, I am TOTALLY on board. I love his sexy ass and would LOVE to see him naked. Yes please and thank you.
ETA: I FINALLY watched the finale last night. Little man barely gives us any breaks. And FTR: Screw you Fox News for spoiling the damn ending for me by allowing a viewer to ask the Q "Are you still going to watch homeland with Brody dead" asshat.
ETAA: I really thought he was going to live.. I thought at the very end when Carrie's boss called her to his office they were going to be like SURPRISE! He IS ALIVE!!! We were just playing... That's why we didn't want to put his star on the wall. GOT YA!" :-(
Super sad panda today man. Super sad.
SURPRISE! BFP: 12/2014 - EDD: 8/13/15
We made plans and God laughed
DS: BFP: 9/30/12 - EDD: 6/9/13
Radley Quinn was fashionably late via induction on 6/17/13
And you're right, that shit is expensive!
I buy the Kirkland brand formula from Costco. It's way cheaper and goes on sale regularly. Plus, it's twice the size of similac and cost less. Good Luck!!
I don't really have a lot to bitch about today thank god!
My back only had a few twinges of pain, but for the most part, I felt pretty good all day. Much better than if I had run the marathon.
Good for you for going out and running four miles. I've found running to be the hardest part of post pregnancy for me. It's not quite the same, but I'm hoping it will get better with time.