Today's my EDD :(

MollySm · December 2013

And I'm finding it very hard to live 2 things at once. I'm so sad, and I miss my little holiday baby that should have been, and at the same time, I started feeling what I think is more consistent movement from my June baby last night, which is making me happy and easing some fears. On top of that, of course no one thinks about today or the first baby the way I do. My SIL at a party said something about it like, "Could you imagine having another baby now?". To which I replied, "Of course I can, I imagine it all the time". I know she means well, but argh.

There is completely no point to this post, other than a need to get it out there. Thanks for listening!

ksulli · December 2013

It's a tough day. And so many conflicting emotions when you're pregnant again. Big hugs. Feel whatever you need to feel.

I found a quote around my EDD that has stuck with me: the sudden disappointment of a hope leaves a scar which the ultimate fulfillment of that hope never entirely removes.

MommaAshley12 · December 2013

Big hugs!! I know exactly how you feel. My EDD was Friday and it was a bittersweet day. We will never forget our angels or stop thinking about who and what they would have grown in to and that's okay! I hope you have continued health with this pregnancy and a healthy little rainbow girl in June

SandSunBliss · December 2013

(((Hugs))) there's just nothing easy about this journey. And at times, it can feel so lonely as we remember our LOs while others have moved on. Please be kin to yourself today. You and your lost LO are in my thoughts.

LiaMadi1 · December 2013

So much love for you...lots of hugs for you!

ball.and.chain · December 2013

I'm sorry. These days are always hard. And yes, others don't necessarily get it.

SuperKim13 · December 2013

Love and so many (((HUGS)))

porterlove525 · December 2013

So many ((((hugs)))). Going through an EDD is always so tough and heart breaking, even when you are pregnant. It's impossible to not grieve what should have been and a life that is gone, no matter how long it has been. When I faced my second EDD this year on 11/5 a close friend sent me a card with a long quote by Ray Bradbury that helped me see my loss in a completely different light.

"Everyone must leave something behind when he dies... something your hand touched some way so your soul has somewhere to go when you die, and when people look at that tree or that flower you planted, you're there. It doesn't matter what you do... so long as you change something that's like you after you take your hands away."

((((Hugs))))

kate6214 · December 2013

I'm glad that you have some good things happening with your baby on such a sad day. (((Hugs))) it baffles me sometimes at the things people say.

SaranJonathan · December 2013

Hugs. Those who haven't been through it don't get it.

RubiksElf · December 2013

Sending you lots of ((hugs)). The conflicting emotions can be really hard. Try to be kind to yourself today and give yourself the space you need.

Lkat17 · December 2013

The insensitive comments are so hard. (((((Big hugs))))))

Here's a quote that has helped me:

"What we have once enjoyed and deeply loved we can never lose, for all that we love deeply becomes a part of us." -Helen Keller

MyFirstRaspberry · December 2013

Be kind to yourself today. It is ok to feel conflicted. I am thinking of you and sending you my ((hugs))

kimmyberly26 · December 2013

Lots of Hugs to you today Molly. I've told myself this month that it is ok to feel conflicted with what we have been through. I hope today is kind to you. Get lots of sweet kisses from Lucia today. That helped me the other week.

alleycat39 · December 2013

Sending you ((hugs)) today.

MrsWallick · December 2013

(((HUGS)))

kateitho · December 2013

Be gentle with yourself today. (((hugs)))

MollySm · December 2013

Thank you for all of your kind words, hugs, and wonderful quotes. We're having a family day at home, which is what I need, but it's also helpful to disappear to my room and read all of your thoughts and know that there are people out there who understand what I am feeling.

kathleensam · December 2013

I have been feeling very similar. My EDD was the 24th, and I can't help but think I should be meeting my baby now and not in April. DH wants me to be happy, but I feel very "wrong" and bittersweet about it.

Here is a quote that have thought on a lot during this pregnancy -

"No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear." - C.S. Lewis

I grieve my losses and I fear for this pregnancy. And that is ok. It's ok for you to feel anything you are feeling too. I am sorry for the insensitive comment. I have heard similar and I hurts. Big virtual hug!

heather52904 · December 2013

[[HUGS]]

dragonfly711 · December 2013

I feel for you, my EDD would have been Sept 8. I now see women waiting to have the September board up for next year!!! Tomorrow is the day that I found out I was pregnant last year. Biter sweet.

I am super excited about June and that has helped me move on but there are certain things that come up that remind me that I would have had a little one for a few months now already.

I am with you!!! Hugs