Why, o why, did I POAS at 5dp3dt? Feel free to yell at me.... — The Bump
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Why, o why, did I POAS at 5dp3dt? Feel free to yell at me....

I have no patience! My husband told me not to POAS before the real blood test so while he was sleeping this morning, I did it anyway. Of course it came out BFN. Argh!!!! On the plus side, the hcg trigger is out of my system but why the F am I so impatient?? And on top of that, I also have no patience for line readings so I buy the digital ones that spell out Not Pregnant so I just pissed away literally like $9. Also, I want to just keep POAS every day from today until beta. My thinking is that we just blew a large wad of cash on this (ivf #3) - why not buy the expensive tests..what's another few bucks? Please feel free to yell at me for all of the above. I know I'm an idiot... TIA :)
Me: 34 - low ovarian reserve
DH: 40 - no issues  

3 failed IUI's 

IVF #1 3/12 - 13 eggs, 9 fertilized,  2 transferred (1 grade 2 blast, 1 early blast), no frosties, 3/30/12 - 9dp5dt spotting, BFNs

IVF #2. 7/12 - 18 days of stims, 3 mature eggs, 3 fertilized (ICSI), 3 transferred (9, 8, 7 cell) on day 3.  First beta - 8/21/12 = 105, beta #2 - 8/23/12 = 268, beta #3 - 8/30/12 = 2,352. 2nd u/s - 9/4/12. Baby Boy born 5/1/2013.

IVF #3 Now (12/13). AMH is very low - 0.19. ER (12/5) 12 eggs, 10 mature, 7 fertilized using ICSI. 3 transferred (8,8,8 cell - all grade 2) on day 3. First beta - 12/21/13 = 126, beta #2 - 12/23/13 = 400, beta #3 - na (office was closed for new year's). First sonogram - TWINS aka OMG! -  


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Re: Why, o why, did I POAS at 5dp3dt? Feel free to yell at me....

  • I am in no position to tell you to knock it off, as I did the exact same thing myself for IVF#1. I will caution you that I completely regret torturing myself like that. After the horrible experience of seeing daily BFNs, I vowed that I'd go beta or bust for IVF#2. Sadly, IVF#2 got canceled before ET, so I haven't had the chance to execute the plan. Good luck to you either way you choose to go!!
    **SIGGY WARNING**

    Me: 32 DH: 35  TTC#1 since March 2012
    Dx: Poor Embryo Quality, Arcuate Uterus, Poor Uterine Blood Flow, Mild Endo, 
           Protein S Deficiency, Sjorgen's Syndrome 

    IUI #1-5: BFN
    Laparoscopy & Hysteroscopy: minimal endo, partial septoplasty
    IVF #1: 10R/6M/6F ~ Day 3 ET = BFN
    IVF #2: 14R/9M/5F ~ transfer canceled ~ all embryos arrested at 1-2 cell stage
    IVF #3: 9R/5M/5F ~ 1 frosty!
    IVF #4 (FET #1): BFN

    IVF #5 (DE IVF #1 with Dr. KK protocol): Currently PREGNANT!!!!!!
    Synthroid + Prednisone + Metformin + Baby Aspirin + Supplements Galore = 15+ pills a day
    Lupron + Lovenox + Delestrogen + IVIG + B/W = 2-5 pokes a day
    19R, 17M, 17F - transferred two Grade A blasts 11/16, four frosties!!!
    Beta #1 11/24 (13dpo/8dp5dt) = 367 ~ Beta #2 11/26 (15dpo/10dp5dt) = 709
    Beta #3 11/29 (18dpo/13dp5dt) = 1,997 ~ Beta #4 12/1 (20dpo/15dp5dt) = 3,403

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  • The past 2 times I POAS the day before my beta. I regret even doing that. I totally feel your impatience and it's so hard to wait and not become consumed by it all. It's SO hard. This time around I will be waiting until my beta day as it's the 26th and I don't want to ruin my holidays.

    Bottom line is do what you feel is best for you and your own sanity. GL!

    TTC since 4/12 
    Me: 32, All clear, DH: 34, low count  
    IVF /ICSI: 4/18/13~ OHSS~Freeze-all 
    FET #1  6/28/13 BFN 
     FET #2  7/29/13 BFN
    FET #3  12/16/13 BFN
    *NEW RE*
    IVF/ICSI #2  3/18/14 BFP, twins m/c 9w4d
    IVF/ICSI #3 08/25/14 BFN
    FET #4 10/14 BFN
    IVF/ICSI #4 1/23/14 BFP Twins!
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  • Don't do it! It's early right now which is why you probably got a BFN, but seriously wait until your beta day! I went to my beta and then came home and tested so I could prepare for the phone call and find out in privacy, but it would have been way too stressful to test and keep seeing negatives and still have to go in for a beta and keep doing meds!

     


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                  May 2013: First R.E. appointment

                  DH: SA is good

                   May 2013: CD3 Blood work-normal
               June 2013: Hsg-Right tube blocked

                   July 26, 2013: Starting Follistim for IVF #1

                  August 2013: IVF #1 Cancelled- Abnormal embryos

             October/November 2013: IVF #2 w/ICSI

                        November 8, 2013: Transferred two early blasts (no frosties) 

    November 18, 2013: First EVER BFP! 

    Beta#1: 91  Beta#2: 288

    1st U/S- 5w2d Saw yolk sac!

    3rd U/S- 7w4d HB of 157bpm!

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  • @runcc37 - you just made me realize that compulsive testing is a way to exert control over a process we have no control over. I think I'm going to keep peeing bc it's my way to manage and have some control over what I'm feeling which is incredibly doubtful and sad. Ugh. I'm so sorry that your #2 got cancelled. It sux and is so unfair. You are incredibly gracious for replying. I'm in awe of u.
    Me: 34 - low ovarian reserve
    DH: 40 - no issues  

    3 failed IUI's 

    IVF #1 3/12 - 13 eggs, 9 fertilized,  2 transferred (1 grade 2 blast, 1 early blast), no frosties, 3/30/12 - 9dp5dt spotting, BFNs

    IVF #2. 7/12 - 18 days of stims, 3 mature eggs, 3 fertilized (ICSI), 3 transferred (9, 8, 7 cell) on day 3.  First beta - 8/21/12 = 105, beta #2 - 8/23/12 = 268, beta #3 - 8/30/12 = 2,352. 2nd u/s - 9/4/12. Baby Boy born 5/1/2013.

    IVF #3 Now (12/13). AMH is very low - 0.19. ER (12/5) 12 eggs, 10 mature, 7 fertilized using ICSI. 3 transferred (8,8,8 cell - all grade 2) on day 3. First beta - 12/21/13 = 126, beta #2 - 12/23/13 = 400, beta #3 - na (office was closed for new year's). First sonogram - TWINS aka OMG! -  


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  • HeatherHam10HeatherHam10 member
    edited December 2013
    That is definitely too early!  I didn't test until 9dp3dt and that's when I got my bfp...it was faint at first too and DEFINITELY would not have been there at 5dp3dt.  Also digital tests are often not as sensitive.  My word of advice is to try to hold out if possible.  I kind of wish I had waited for beta even though I got my bfp because it made the 2 day wait to beta sooo long.  Easier said than done though...GL!
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  • LeoLauren said:
    @runcc37 - you just made me realize that compulsive testing is a way to exert control over a process we have no control over. I think I'm going to keep peeing bc it's my way to manage and have some control over what I'm feeling which is incredibly doubtful and sad. Ugh. I'm so sorry that your #2 got cancelled. It sux and is so unfair. You are incredibly gracious for replying. I'm in awe of u.
    You gotta do what you gotta do. Control is an illusion... it will be what it will be. For me, it started as testing out my trigger and that turned into a slippery slope. I couldn't stop myself. Everyday, I would go through the cycle of testing, seeing a BFN, feeling devastated and crushed all morning/afternoon, and rallying to find some hope that it was "too soon to turn a positive." Wake up the next day, and do it all over again. I was miserable, and even though waiting and wondering is absolutely TORTUROUS, I think I'd prefer that to what I did to myself for IVF#1. 

    If you're going to test daily between now and beta, then I'd recommend that you don't use digital. If you're able to spend the $$ then FRER is the best way to go. If you want to go with cheapies, then avoid blue dye tests (they have a history of false positives). Good luck! And I hope you see your second line soon!
    **SIGGY WARNING**

    Me: 32 DH: 35  TTC#1 since March 2012
    Dx: Poor Embryo Quality, Arcuate Uterus, Poor Uterine Blood Flow, Mild Endo, 
           Protein S Deficiency, Sjorgen's Syndrome 

    IUI #1-5: BFN
    Laparoscopy & Hysteroscopy: minimal endo, partial septoplasty
    IVF #1: 10R/6M/6F ~ Day 3 ET = BFN
    IVF #2: 14R/9M/5F ~ transfer canceled ~ all embryos arrested at 1-2 cell stage
    IVF #3: 9R/5M/5F ~ 1 frosty!
    IVF #4 (FET #1): BFN

    IVF #5 (DE IVF #1 with Dr. KK protocol): Currently PREGNANT!!!!!!
    Synthroid + Prednisone + Metformin + Baby Aspirin + Supplements Galore = 15+ pills a day
    Lupron + Lovenox + Delestrogen + IVIG + B/W = 2-5 pokes a day
    19R, 17M, 17F - transferred two Grade A blasts 11/16, four frosties!!!
    Beta #1 11/24 (13dpo/8dp5dt) = 367 ~ Beta #2 11/26 (15dpo/10dp5dt) = 709
    Beta #3 11/29 (18dpo/13dp5dt) = 1,997 ~ Beta #4 12/1 (20dpo/15dp5dt) = 3,403

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  • I don't know if it makes you feel any better, but I am only 3 days-ish past a Day 2 Transfer :\"> and was already contemplating POAS. It's soooo hard to wait, but it helps to read from those who have done it in the past and said that it only made it worst. I just hope the next two weeks go by quickly!

    Me: 28, DH: 35
    DX: Severe MFI, AZFc Microdeletion
    TTC since August 2011
    IVF w/ ICSI 1: Dec. 2013 - BFN
    FET 1.2: Mar. 2014 - BFN
    FET 1.3: May 2014 - BFN
    FET 1.4: June 2014 - BFP
    Two little buns in the oven. 
    Bake until March 2015, little ones. 


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    Life will be richer for me." 
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