This is me, whining. Sorry.

mrsjenni

Sorry... I never really whine much, but I feel an urge today.

I had a not so good appt yesterday and I know in the grand scheme of things my appt was normal and NBD.  Believe me, I KNOW this.  But I feel like I'm getting overly emotional and upset over everything lately due to the fact that I have to attend a funeral for a 10 year old boy tomorrow (OP here).  Everything is making me upset and I KNOW that's the underlying issue here... I'm just upset, in general, about losing such a sweet soul.

Basically...

• My regular OB finally agreed with my MFM doc and suggested I take the 3 hour GTT even though I passed the 1 hour twice this pregnancy, have had 3 big babies and have never had GD.  She wasn't overly surprised with the 6lb weight estimate at 32w but said she recommends I take it "just in case." In an effort not to act like a selfish brat, I gave in.  I take it on 12/27. But fuck. #$%^@*(%#
• I've been really struggling this last week... I just feel DONE.  And I know I'm only 33w, but this is baby #4 (each pregnancy gets progressively worse, especially in 3rd tri) and this is getting difficult, especially while chasing after a 5, 3 and 15m old. Well when my OB took my fundal height measurement yesterday, I found out WHY I've been hurting more this week... my belly measured 39w.  Effing 6 weeks ahead.  At my last appt it "only" measured 4 weeks ahead. Good times.
• On top of the "done" feeling I've had this week, my OB let me know that her hospital schedule changed for January and she had to move my induction BACK 3 days.  FUN!  A rational person knows that 3 days is NBD, but I am not rational right now.  She might as well have told me I'm going to be pregnant forever.  Not only do I have to be in pregnancy hell for an additional weekend, I'm now delivering on a Monday instead of a Friday, which totally sucks for childcare with the other kids and finding someone to take DS1 to school, etc. And you can go ahead and say "well you never know, the baby could come on her own before then."  Stop.  Just stop.  My babies don't ever want to leave my belly on their own.  I'm 100% sure homegirl will need to be forced out of there just like her brothers and sister.  True story.

So, yeah.

Believe me, I get that there are worse problems to have and that I should just be happy that my baby is healthy (I am), but fuck.  That's just too much crappy news to get in 1 appointment, 2 days before I have to attend a funeral for a close family friend.  A little boy.  A BABY.  Ugh.

I'm hoping I become my rational self soon so that I can slap the current me in the face for being upset about such trivial things. But for the time being? Imma be upset, mmmkay?

And for the tl;dr crowd, I bolded the important parts.

peanutmuse

I'm sorry that you are having a rough week. Totally acceptable to feel that way, vent away. Big hugs to you. xoxo.

Ljessen13

Awwww @mrsjenni. I am sorry you had a disappointing doc appt yesterday!!!! Huge hugs coming ur way!!!! I can't imagine how hard it is going to be to attend that funeral...yours and their family will be in my prayers. !

jmjj1310

I'm sorry you had an appointment filled with craptastic news yesterday. Sending hugs! 

nikkijd17

I'm sorry it's so rough right now. I'd be upset, too. That's a whole lot to emotionally handle right now. I hope it all balances out soon. Happy thoughts and hugs to you!

megs12914

I'm sorry things are so shitty right now. Hopefully everything will start getting better ASAP.

Deblondie1

Whine away. I'm so sorry it's been a hard week and then the OB appt on top of it. ::hugs::

LuGal623

Aw @mrsjenni you are 100 percent rational in your feelings. You're running a marathon everyday with your family and work life. I'm so sorry about everything you are going through.

Momto1goofball

I'm sorry that you are having such a hard week. It's perfectly fine to feel the way you are. I hope it gets better soon though. (((Hugs)))

goldenB

((Hugs Mama)) 
you have every right to vent and every right to feel emotional and upset. Just one of those things can easily trigger someone to feel overwhelmed and you get everything thrown at you all at once. If you need to have a good cry, I highly suggest it. Sometimes a really good cry-fest makes me feel a little bit better. and chocolate. and some H snuggles.

xo

BladeDancer

I'm sorry that you are having such a rough time. It sounds like you have a very good reason for being upset.

cowscrub

Aw @mrsjenni I'm sorry and have complete empathy about the 4th pregnancy part. I'm 34 weeks with #4 and over this! And then to have you be prego and deliver on a mon vs fri sooo puts a hiccup in the childcare. . My heart aches for you for today and what you and his family have to do. Hugs to you!

salsamommy

BIG HUGS!!! I'm sorry you're having a rough week.

PreDempsey

Sorry for your loss, thinking of you and your family today.

ChuggingWater

I'd be whiny, too.

ccip82

::Huge hugs::

You've had an incredibly difficult and stressful week. Vent to us all you need. Keeping you and your friends in my prayers.

BuckeyeMommy4

Whine away Mama! I've been thinking of you and praying for that sweet boy's family.

#4 has definitely been the hardest pregnancy for me too. Between the SPD and GERD, I am done! My friend, who was due 10 days after me, had her baby this morning and I wanted to cry. My 15 month old won't sleep and my 7 and 3 year olds won't stop fighting. So I decided to make them scrub the kitchen floor and tables and chairs as we get snowed in today

Sorry to turn this into my whiny vent!

I hope next week is a million times better for you! *hugs*

mrskratt

Big hugs to you momma!! Vent away! I'm so sorry

dland0201

I'm sorry things aren't going well. Hopefully things get better soon.

HappyDoc

Oh man, I'm sorry you got such shitty news all at one time. Vent away, I think that everything you are feeling is what any of us would be feeling in your situation. I know that doesn't make it any easier, just want you to know that we get it. I am only at 34w4d, and I am so done of being pregnant that I just sit and cry and ask why my unborn child is torturing me! Hope that things start looking up for you soon.

Kc101212

I'm sorry it's been such a rough week. I'd whine too. Everything will work itself out though. Sending lots of hugs and thoughts your way.

Hkula

Sending lots of hugs, Ts and Ps to you and your family.  

Dishylo

I'm so sorry you're having a rough time lady. Don't ever apologize for whining because your problems are 'trivial' or somehow not as important as somebody else's. Your feelings are your feelings and they are valid, no matter what. I hope you get some rest in the next few days.

I'm terribly sorry for the loss of this young boy in your community.

Kismc

Vent away! Those are all justifiable reasons to feel overwhelmed and when combined...?! I'm so sorry that you're having a rough time. ((Hugs))

aessary03

I am so very sorry. You have every right in the world to be upset. *hugs*

sarahmarie2

Sorry you're having a rough time, MrsJenni. I'm sure things will pick up, it's just a crappy week. You're totally justified in being upset, though. I hope you're able to relax and cheer up soon, and that your GD test goes over well.

megngregk

I'm sending you huge hugs @mrsjenni. You have every right to whine and be miserable right now. I'm still so sorry for that boy's family. I know you were all close as well, and I cannot imagine the hurt you're all feeling right now. I'll be sending lots of thoughts and prayers your way tomorrow. And I agree, totally shitty OB appt yesterday. Maybe you'll go into labor earlier on your own and won't have to be pregnant forever

citybeach

I'm sorry Totally understandable why you are feeling this way. Thinking of you over this sad weekend.

tesskerr

You can vent all you want! You are having a crappy time of it. It sucks that you have to so the test so late in the game, especially with your history of big babies.

I hope that UO "don't whine" poster comes on here today and realizes that there are heaps and heaps of times when it is ok, even really good to let it all out, and I hope you feel a tad better.

squeakbeth

I don't post often, plus I hit the weekend posting window, so you can take this or leave it.

I went through something similar with passing the 1 hour GTT twice, but they wanted some assurance I wasn't "just beating the test." Wth? My DD wasn't even close to a big baby. I declined additional testing and the doctor said he would just test my A1C (like for diabetics). So one needle poke and $3.00 later he could see if I had ever had a prolonged period of high blood sugar. I am not sure how far back it goes, but way before I was pregnant. It made me wonder why they don't just do this instead of that damn syrup drink torture test!

So maybe ask if that is an option?

I don't understand why all the push to make you test again if you will be 35 weeks by then. So... Then you avoid carbs for 5 whole weeks or until they induce? Doesn't seem worth everything they are putting you through.

Anyway, hope you feel better soon. Creepy semi-lurker hug!

MrsGraham06

I didn't realize how similar our situations are. You definitely have a right to feel that way. I measured 4 weeks ahead last week, not looking forward to my next appointment.

Summer889

I think you have every right to be annoyed and upset.  I'm sorry you're having a rough week!  Fingers crossed things get better for you soon. 

forevergraceful

((Hugs)). I am sorry you are having a rough week. Lots of positive thoughts sent your way. 

HeartOverMind

I would be feeling irrational too! Hugs to you. I'm so sorry about all the crappiness.

Winnieella

I am so sorry, big hugs. You have every right to be upset over this. None of that sounded like good news. I really hope that things can turn around for you soon.

jwp325

First of all I think you're amazing for doing all that you're doing. It's perfectly normal to whine and be frustrated with everything that's going on right now. Vent, get it out, and hopefully you'll feel some amount better because you've released all those feelings.

sugarland726

Big hugs. You are allowed to complain. I know what it feels to hit the pregnancy wall and it sucks. Just more big hugs. Lean on Mr. Jenni. I know from your stories and blog that he is a good man and a good father.

Ninjafarmerswife

You can whine all you want (for whatever you want) and I'm sending big hugs to you because each of those things would super suck on their own but when you combine them all I'm not sure how you aren't in a corner throwing a big tantrum.  Also hoping you find strength in the next few days and weeks, what a trying time of year for you and your family.  

mrsjenni

Thanks so much everyone!  I feel a little better since I wrote it all out.  Still feel like a bit of a brat though.  Sigh.

sugarland726 said:

Big hugs. You are allowed to complain. I know what it feels to hit the pregnancy wall and it sucks. Just more big hugs. Lean on Mr. Jenni. I know from your stories and blog that he is a good man and a good father.

@sugarland726- I seriously couldn't make it without him. He's amazing.  

KristaBelieve

I'm sorry.

WinsyWade

I am so sorry. All those things completely suck and I'm sorry they all happened together.

I can relate to the GD test the most. I had to take the 3 hour and was diagnosed with GD last week. It's like 4 weeks of diet and poking my fingers. I'm borderline so no meds (yay! But...). It just seems like a waste, even though I know it's for the best.
I hope, even though you have to suffer through the 3hour, you pass with flying colors and no GD diet/meds/testing supplies are needed.