Back again :( (DS mentioned)

toomanycats1

I hope you ladies will have me back!  

For those of you that are new, I'll re-intro.  My name is HelloSweetie1 (formerly Nyahsbabyblues) and DH and I have been together for 14 years.  We have a wonderful 6 year old ds that was such an easy baby, we were sure we were "one and done".  When he turned 5 we decided to have another, and we've been trying since June 2012.  I had a missed mc last December, a chemical pregnancy this passed summer, and now, 

after our 3rd loss in less than a year, it looks like I'm back again.  

I got my BFP last month, and it just seemed so right because we had conceived during a magical Disneyland vacation... unfortunately I had another loss at 8 weeks.  We did RPL testing a few months ago, and my OB had me on Prometrium and Metformin, but I guess it wasn't enough.  I was able to mc without any medication this time at least, and my body recognized the mc right away.  I'm looking for small positives at this point.

DH and I talked about where we go from here, and both agree that we are not ready to give up.  We are going to keep trying, and maybe search for more answers.  We are going to try and get in better shape, and see if that helps at all.  We live 9 hours away from any Fertility Specialists, so we aren't ready to pursue that yet.  

At least this time we had told NO ONE, so there isn't anyone to "untell".  Life goes on.  I don't know if that's a healthy way to deal with things but it works best for me.  I can be strong and prefer to grieve in silence, and oh do I grieve!  Plus, people still bring up the mc they do know about (almost a year later) and clearly have no idea how painful it is for me to discuss it.  I've learned from that mistake.  

Anyway, sorry for rambling ladies.  If you got through this, then thank you!  

BethKate2

I'm sorry for your loss and that you find yourself back here.

Everyone grieves differently, and if this time you feel like you need to grieve on your own, that's what you need to do.

Take care of yourself.

taberbtb

I am so sorry you find yourself back here.

MyFirstRaspberry

I am so very sorry for another loss. I am thinking of you.

Emma2370

I am sorry for your losses, welcome back to the board..hope your stay is short and sweet.

PinkCamino

I'm so sorry for your loss and that you are back here.

dajhughes

Oh no. I am so sorry for your loss. I pray you find peace and comfort and that you find the support you need here. It sounds like you have set some good goals and I wish you luck. (((Hugs)))

rubysi

I am sorry for your losses. Welcome back.

libby+nate

So sorry to see you back. ((Hugs))

Frenchteachermama

I'm so sorry for your loss!

luciddreamer106

I'm so sorry for your loss. ((hugs))

LaRomana09

I'm so sorry for your loss and that you find yourself back here.  (((((HUGS)))))

blackbird818

I'm so sorry you find yourself back here again! (((Hugs)))

toomanycats1

Thanks everyone!  The support and warm welcome really mean a lot.  This board is amazing. 

Thank you so much :-)

doglover31

I'm so sorry you have to come back. Sending huge (((hugs))) your way!

alilbear

So sorry you're back here. Many ((hugs)).

Poppy715

I'm so so sorry for your loss and that you are back here with us.

HeyMrsPotter

I'm so sorry you find yourself back here again. ((HUGS))

TVLily

I'm so sorry for your losses. Take care if yourself. ((Hugs))

gscoville

Oh honey, I'm so very sorry!! (((hugs)))  I don't think it's unhealthy at all to want to grieve on your own, the pain of 'untelling' people is huge and I know if we ever get a BFP again we'll keep it to ourselves instead of telling everyone right away.  We're more private people and would rather deal with things on our own.  Whatever works, right?  If that's what works for you, then it's right.

I hope you get some answers soon, you know I know the frustration of living so far away from specialists and I truly hope it doesn't come to having to weigh those options.  All thoughts and best wishes are with you right now!

anitaflora

I'm so sorry you're back here - huge hugs to you.

AnyMax

I am so sorry for your loss and that you are back here. So many (((HUGS)))

LifeofCat

I'm so sorry you suffered another loss and find yourself back here (((hugs)))

JustinsGirl2011

((Hugs)) I am so sorry for your losses.

buggirl72

I am so sorry ((((hugs)))). 

dawnstar898

sorry you had to come back, hopefully it won't be for too long (((hugs)))

stefuge

I'm so sorry for your losses and that you find your self back here. ((Hugs))

Giants721

I'm so sorry for your losses.

peggels24

I'm so sorry for your loss

amberhoothoot

I am sorry for your losses.

carlsonbaby2014

I am so so sorry ((((hugs))))

RustyGirl3

So sorry you have found yourself back here.  (((HUGS)))

lindsebert

I'm so sorry to be reading this. Big, big (((hugs))). 

kaniela17

I'm so sorry for your losses. That's such a hard thing to be ready for a second only to have such struggles.
(((Big hugs))) >:D<

alm288

I'm very sorry that you found yourself here again and for your loss :-( I hope your stay here is a short one!

jap618

I'm so so sorry you're back here  I'm sorry for your loss love & I'm here if you ever want to talk

alleycat39

So very sorry to see you back. (hugs)

esmith10

I'm so sorry that you find yourself back here. ((Hugs))

megrae12

I am so sorry for your losses. ((Hugs)) sweetie.