First off it feels like so much longer than 2 weeks... also my anxiety is still off the charts... I went to the pharmacist today to fill the rx my ob sent in last week (I had a few pills at home.. so I was hoping I wouldn't need to fill it... but I was wrong.) Well they didn't have the script.. and its Saturday.. ugh!! SO I'm going to call them Monday.. hopefully I don't have an attack.. yesterday was bad.. I mean BAD... Anxiety wise.. interesting how that is how my grief is showing..
Today I am sad.. I keep replaying how I always felt like something was wrong from the start, but how I felt ok b/c I don't know.. I felt like I was safe from m/c.. ugh Why do I beat myself up?? I just want to crawl back in bed.. until my heart and brain can work out everything that needs worked out... My first m/c wasn't this hard.. I'm just having such a hard time.. anger, bitterness, sadness, anxiety.. And I still have to keep it together..
Come on Sticky baby!!
EDD: 2/26/11 BORN: 2/15/2011
EDD: 2/23/2014 M/C 6/18/2013
EDD 6/25/2014 M/C 11/8/2013
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