Intro, Loss at 21 weeks

diamante1181

Hello everyone. Firstly, let me say how sorry I am that anyone has to be on this board at all. A little about my story is in my siggy. We were expecting twins, a boy and a girl, and we had made it to 21 weeks and a few days. I had gone to bed, and my water broke. Long story short, after developing fever and infection, they had to induce and I gave birth to my little angels on 10/23. I am such a mess, my husband and I have just been spending time alone together since everything happened. I am split in two. One half is almost dead, the other half is still hopeful for the future. They made us memory boxes at the hospital, with their little clothes, pictures that were taken of them together, and their hand and foot molds and prints. I have seriously come undone. I kiss the boxes every night. I talk to them in my mind. I wish they could have stayed and that we could've gotten to know them. To see them grow. To give them all the love they could have ever dreamed. I don't know how I will get through this at all. I don't know anything right now. I don't know if and when we will try again. All I know is that deep inside I have the desire to be a mother, and don't know if it will ever happen. If you read all that, thank you. I don't know where else to turn without judgement.

libby+nate

So sorry that you find yourself here. My heart breaks for you. I second that the loss board may help even more. You are welcome here also of course! Sending prayers from you, your DH and your little angels. I hope this board can bring you some comfort in your healing process. Again, words cannot express how sorry I am for you. (((HUGS)))

diamante1181

I am definitely going to check out the loss board also. I hope I have not offended anyone.

[Deleted User]

I wept as I read your story. I am so sorry. T&P

diamante1181

Thank you all. I appreciate your kindness very much.

maisonduchoco2

My heart breaks for you, I am so sorry for your losses. ::hugs::

chusum

What a heart breaking experience. I am so sorry for the loss of your twins.

JoJoMama730

I am so sorry this happened to you. Your story is making my heart hurt. So much pain. I'm new here myself, and I don't know how the women here are able to be so supportive while hurting so much. I'm not there yet, but I'm trying. I hope you can find some comfort here.

Emma2370

I am so sorry for the loss of your twins, please be kind to yourself. Thoughts and prayers to you and your family.

co baby1

I am so sorry for the loss of your twins! Big ((hugs))

RayRay007

I am so sorry for your loss. There is no reason you should ever feel judgement. I really have no words. Please take care.

conradraging

I am heartbroken for you and your husband to have experienced such loss. I hope you find support, be it here or on the loss board. Hope that it helps to make your healing process even just the tiniest bit easier. T&P

alm288

I'm so sorry for your losses! Your story brought tears to my eyes. I had a loss at 9w and cannot even imagine what you must be going through. I hope that you and your DH can focus on yourselves for a while and on grieving. You certainly will need time to grieve and digest everything that has happened. I hope you are able to find peace again someday and are able to remain hopefully.

You are welcome to join us around here but I agree that the other board has women who can perhaps identify better with your particular situation. You absolutely did not offend anyone here! No need to apologize. I wish you and your DH all the best! Big hugs.

amandalou22

So utterly sorry. This is a great support group, I hope you find a tiny bit of comfort here. In the meantime I'm praying hard for you.

MrsG80inTN

My heart hurts for you.  Praying that you find comfort and peace and the ability to move on to a new normal once you are ready.

Frenchteachermama

diamante1181 said:

Hello everyone. Firstly, let me say how sorry I am that anyone has to be on this board at all. A little about my story is in my siggy. We were expecting twins, a boy and a girl, and we had made it to 21 weeks and a few days. I had gone to bed, and my water broke. Long story short, after developing fever and infection, they had to induce and I gave birth to my little angels on 10/23. I am such a mess, my husband and I have just been spending time alone together since everything happened. I am split in two. One half is almost dead, the other half is still hopeful for the future. They made us memory boxes at the hospital, with their little clothes, pictures that were taken of them together, and their hand and foot molds and prints. I have seriously come undone. I kiss the boxes every night. I talk to them in my mind. I wish they could have stayed and that we could've gotten to know them. To see them grow. To give them all the love they could have ever dreamed. I don't know how I will get through this at all. I don't know anything right now. I don't know if and when we will try again. All I know is that deep inside I have the desire to be a mother, and don't know if it will ever happen. If you read all that, thank you. I don't know where else to turn without judgement.

I am heartbroken for you.  You chose beautiful names, Sophie and Gabriel.  You and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers.

LifeofCat

I am so sorry for your loss of sweet Sophie and Gabriel.

I lost my daughter Marianne at 22 weeks, and the pain remains unbearable some days. She was so beautiful, as I know your children were beautiful. Don't be afraid to take good care of yourself and to take the time you need to heal. Nothing is right or wrong in grief; everyone's journey is different.

Never hesitate to send me a private message if you need to; I'm sending you much love and strength  (((Hugs)))

masterofallcheese

my heart breaks for you. you are welcome here and i hope this board can help you. ((hugs))