I did way too much reading and the odds of miscarriage are so high i'm freaked out! Also I stupidly read about all these women thinking they had a healthy baby, then a few weeks later no heart beat...FREAKED OUT 12 weeks can't come soon enough, better yet the 9th month.
Re: Too scared to be excited...
That being said, I do want this to be a happy and memorable pregnancy. I know this will be my last child my age pretty much has already dictated that. So I can continue to read all the negative things on the Internet or I can just sit back and relax and take all the tasks that I need to take and play it by ear. If there is one thing that every Internet source should have in common is that miscarriage is 100% out of your control and if you cannot change that then you can't spend your life worry about it.
I recently had brown spotting and cramping so was really scared. But guess what? Everything turned out fine and I worried myself sick for no reason. I recently read something that stuck with me "worrying is like a rocking chair, it's something to do but doesn't get you anywhere".