Birthday Tears

Petunia844 · September 2013

Well, we made it through Raylan's party!! It was mostly a perfect party, so many people came and we were surrounded by so much love for him it was amazing... the party went off without a hitch (more pictures to come....) the only glitch in the day was I totally lost it when it was time for the cake... I was worried I would. Most people who've lost someone really close will understand that people just have different triggers for their grief, birthday parties have always been hard for me, every time someone sings happy birthday I just think how I'll never sing it to Peyton... so the cake came out, we sang...and I just started to cry, with 50 or so family and friends all right there.... ugh. Raylan loved his cake and I got nothing but hugs and love, I was just bummed that I should have been laughing and watching my big boy eat his cake, but I was crying instead. Oh well, I just hope it gets easier every year.

Otherwise though it was really a perfect day, here's my BIG boy about to dive in to this beautiful mini rainbow cake his auntie made him.