Does it ever get easier?!?

APRILMW

I just had my beta drawn. No results yet. But, I've lost it. I already knew, as I've tested, but had yet to cry about this negative. That is until the needle was in my arm & RE decides to ask if I tested. I lost it. I hate this!!!!!

sorrellam30

My first reaction is no, it never gets easier. But I do think, unfortunately, that you get more numb. My first negative beta was def the hardest, but just try to think with every negative you have to be getting closer to your positive. Big hugs to you

RunCC37

I'm sorry you're feeling down... I don't think it gets any easier. If anything, I have noticed each one gets harder to accept ((hugs))

bhead81

**SIGGY**

I am so sorry!  IF SUCKS!  ((HUGS))

amcastord

Not that I've found so far...(((hugs))) do something fun for yourself today! 

twistsandturnsto2

I've got to agree, it doesn't get easier. I've just found better ways to deal with the loss/accept the bad news. It's tough but you just have to remind yourself of all the good things you have and keep your eyes on the prize of a take home baby.
Take care of yourself today. (((Hugs)))

Sunny B

I'm so so sorry

TaylorH84

I'm so sorry! I know the feeling all too well unfortunately . Just yesterday I was feeling down and had tons of anxiety. I just have to find the strength to continue to move fwd. Im scared to death for my 2nd round. I hope you and your hubby stay strong!

APRILMW

Thanks ladies! I crawled back into bed!

katekat8721

(((big hugs)))

anations

I am so sorry.  My losses in the past did not get any easier.  I guess we all have good and bad days and have no choice but to keep going forward.  This is not the end, just another (really hard and annoying) road block.  Surround yourself with people who care.  Hugs always helped me. 

happygirl1013

I'm so sorry about your results.  For me, it never gets easier.  It's like having a physical ailment, except for it has yet to heal and keeps getting worse.

briehannah

RunCC37 said:

I'm sorry you're feeling down... I don't think it gets any easier. If anything, I have noticed each one gets harder to accept ((hugs))

I totally agree with you @RunCC37. I think the negatives and the losses earlier on were easier bc in a way you kinda accepted.... "ok, i knew it probably wasn't going to be THAT easy". In a way, i feel like the earlier on that it was.. there was still so much hope. Hope is something that diminishes each and every month that goes by or each and every failed attempt that happens. I feel less and less hopeful. Like this is NEVER going to happen.

RunCC37

briehannah said:

RunCC37 said:

I'm sorry you're feeling down... I don't think it gets any easier. If anything, I have noticed each one gets harder to accept ((hugs))

I totally agree with you @RunCC37. I think the negatives and the losses earlier on were easier bc in a way you kinda accepted.... "ok, i knew it probably wasn't going to be THAT easy". In a way, i feel like the earlier on that it was.. there was still so much hope. Hope is something that diminishes each and every month that goes by or each and every failed attempt that happens. I feel less and less hopeful. Like this is NEVER going to happen.

Exactly. It is so hard to stay hopeful when you see something progress so "perfectly" all along and then in the end it is the same disappointing result. I am feeling a lot more hopeful this cycle as an IVF newbie, but I can't completely stifle the fear that this could flop just like everything else before. I'm trying to stuff that in the back of my mind and hang onto the excitement and hope. Sigh.

APRILMW

Yeah I'm with you guys. So hard cause before IVF I knew if the other attempts didn't work, there was always IVF. Now with a CP & then just plain BFN under my belt its just discouraging. Especially with all frozen embryos being highest & best grading! Grrr. On positive note, looks like DH is ready to put 2 in next time, that'll help with this #'s game!

Prayingforblessing

(((Hugs))) It doesn't get easier but when you getting the reward (BFP) the feeling is greater. Im sorry...Yay for getting DH to go for two!!

kjf114

After going through a bfn and a loss.. It does.. I'm hopeful again and optimistic we are pushed till we break then assemble stronger next time. I'm so sorry your dealing with this.

BellaLux

I don't think it gets easier, you either become numb, learn how to cope, or the intensity lessens slightly so you can manage it better. I'm sorry, this is an incredibly difficult journey

Tenyearwait

I was just wondering the same thing. It never seems to get easier. Trying to stay positive.

APRILMW

Thanks everyone! Had a good cry today & now moving forward! Even checked out due date if we go for Feb FET

TaylorH84

Goodness, if it makes you feel any better, I cry close to every day lol. .....and, I've never been a big cryer until I started this crap haha. I'm really glad to hear you're thinking positively and looking towards the future!!

APRILMW

Who knows, I may breakdown again! I might just be numb at this point. I was kinda "whatever" this whole FET cycle though???

AJC&Maggie

It doesn't get easier for me, but I get better at being numb to the sadness and despair.

dionnewedding

That's exactly how I feel, @AJC&Maggie. I may just die of shock whenever I do see a BFP. I'm used to the disappointment...

APRILMW

I think that's what it is... I'm numb & jaded. Ugh. Sad!

mmhopeful

I'm sorry.  Please continue to rely on your husband, family and friends.  They all matter and really care.  You have another "little princess" to take care of and who thinks the world of you! 

shelbeans82

RunCC37 said:

briehannah said:

RunCC37 said:

I'm sorry you're feeling down... I don't think it gets any easier. If anything, I have noticed each one gets harder to accept ((hugs))

I totally agree with you @RunCC37. I think the negatives and the losses earlier on were easier bc in a way you kinda accepted.... "ok, i knew it probably wasn't going to be THAT easy". In a way, i feel like the earlier on that it was.. there was still so much hope. Hope is something that diminishes each and every month that goes by or each and every failed attempt that happens. I feel less and less hopeful. Like this is NEVER going to happen.

Exactly. It is so hard to stay hopeful when you see something progress so "perfectly" all along and then in the end it is the same disappointing result. I am feeling a lot more hopeful this cycle as an IVF newbie, but I can't completely stifle the fear that this could flop just like everything else before. I'm trying to stuff that in the back of my mind and hang onto the excitement and hope. Sigh.

This is exactly how I feel