DH and I are thinking about TTC. This all came about from a scare a couple of weeks ago. First a little background.
I've been diagnosed bi-polar and I'm on different medications to manage it. I'm happy with my regimen of meds and therapy and I'm pretty stable. I know that most of my meds aren't safe to take while PG or BF so I've put off kids and even thought I'd never have any.
Hormonal BC caused me to have pulmonary emboli this June. I was in the hospital for a week and thought I wasn't going to make it. I'm on Coumadin for at least 6 months to reduce the risk of more clots. Needless to say, they took me off the BC and recommended the Paragard. I got it inserted in July and all was hunkydory for a bit.
Then the symptoms started. Heightened sense of smell, extreme nausea and vomiting, cramping, etc. Symptoms I had never experienced before. I was certain that I was one of those rare cases that got PG on the IUD. I obsessed and soul searched and I finally came to the conclusion that I was excited and actually wanted to be PG for the first time.
I had two BFNs at home until I begged my OBGYN to run a urine test in clinic. BFN. She understood my concern for an accidental PG with Paragard and my medications so she ran bloodwork to check. BFN.
I was crushed. I cried for days (mostly in part to my crazy hormone fluctuations since going off BC) but man, I realized I want to be a mom after all.
I'm still struggling with the difference between wanting to be PG and fear of the extreme responsibility it carries but I'm trying to work through it. I have an appointment with my pulmonologist in a couple of weeks to discuss what I can do about the blood thinners while TTC/being PG and just see if it is even safe for us to try. Once I discuss that with him, I'll make an appointment to see my psychiatrist about my mental meds and see what I need to cut out to protect a future baby.
Very long intro but I just needed to get it all out there. Thanks for reading if you made it all the way through!