I mistakenly read a post about someone losing their twins at 16 weeks due to fluid leaking and of course, my psychosomatic self is now paranoid i am losing fluid and not aware of it. i had a heartbeat check yesterday at 17w1d and babies were good and my next u/s is with MFM next Tuesday. my last u/s was at 16 w with MFM and cervix was 6+ and closed (yes, crazy long cervix-which is a good thing).
i HATE not being able to enjoy just being pregnant and trusting that everything will be fine. i feel like there are some moments i am excited and then my PAIF brain comes in and says "wait! don't get happy yet! there's so much that could still go wrong!". i went from worrying about miscarrying in 1st tri, to worrying about pre-term labor in 2nd tri. my mom also had 10 late 1st tri/early 2nd tri losses (i was her only live birth) so of course that has my freaking out.
just needed to vent. is anyone else still worrying? i'm hoping it gets better after 24 weeks which i know i am getting closer and closer to. blah. thanks for listening!
Me (37) DH (39); PCOS changed to Unexplained, changed to DOR in 2012 (finally a correct diagnosis!);
Started TTC 2009 with RE after 6 months.
Clomid + Trigger x2;
IUI + Femara x1,
IUI + Follistim x2;
IVF #1 (MDL) February 2013- BFN.
IVF #2 (antagonist) May 2013, First BFP of my life.
Identical twin miracle BOYS (!!) headed our way- due date is technically 2/4/14 but c section is scheduled for 1/7!