First off, I want to thank you all again for the outpouring of love and support. I didn't realize how badly I've needed that or how alone I've felt. You all gave me such great advice that relieved me to know I had options. I decided to go through with the meeting with the agency's director since I had already scheduled it and was feeling a bit overwhelmed, and I'm glad I did! She was much nicer in person (she's just not the warm and fuzzy type and comes across harshly over the phone I think) and had taken all of my concerns into consideration in preparing for the meeting. I feel confident in going forward with this agency because I looked at probably 100 parent profiles across the state and one couple at this particular agency truly spoke to me. I fell in love with them and knew I wanted them to be the couple to adopt my baby. Turns out they are a good potential match, so I'm waiting back to hear if the husband is OK with my situation and wants to adopt my baby. I hope he does! No other families popped out to me like they did and I think I'll feel very rejected if it doesn't work out. I also hope I can get in contact with them soon because I find out the gender Thurs. and would love for them to be the first I tell (I know everything wouldn't be finalized at this point but there's no way I'd back out ever). I hate the waiting! But I'm glad the meeting went well.
Birthmom to A, 1/8- the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.
A Journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. -Lao-Tzu