Is it bad to not beleive your actually pregnant?

tinymep

I am going through a period of denial right now.  Last year I went through an abnormally long miscarriage and it took me about 6 months to get all the HCG levels out of my system. Me and my husband started trying again, and I just found out that I am pregnant!  As exciting as that is I am going through this period where I don't believe it.  I took 4 pregnancy tests and they all had faint positive, so that makes me think even more that its not real.  I am so excited about being a mom, but I fear l will lose it again so I'm in denial.  Any advice?

Heeb918

I'm in the same spot so no advice. But I do wish you good luck!

tinymep

Thanks, glad to at least know that Im not alone.   Good luck to you too!

porterlove525

You are not alone at all. I too am in the same boat. So much so DH poured me a glass of wine last night and completely forgot. My only advice is to be happy with being pregnant today, take it one day at a time. Good luck and congrats!

lisafish1179

Your not alone...I was in denial for a long time. Its hard but Try and be happy and enjoy what you can

jap618

I had my BFP almost 2 weeks ago and I still forget.  I keep thinking about pumpkin beer & getting excited only to remember that *hopefully* I won't be able to have any this season.  I will be in denial until the first u/s I think.  Know that we are here for you if you need anything

Pamelacake

You're definitely not alone. It took me a while to believe it myself. And I still, like a couple of PP's said, catch myself thinking about fall activities and concerts and then I'm like oh wait, can't do it.

I hope that these feelings will subside for you and you can start to enjoy it.

NJMom050911

I'm 23 weeks and I'm still in denial. It took me 10 months and several procedures and surgery to be able to get pregnant after my D&C so I'm paranoid and scared. Congratulations!

figgs0831

I'm the same way.  I'm just shy of 6 weeks and I am still peeing on sticks!  It's a sick obsession...  I just refuse to beleave it is real.

Either way, eventually there will come a point where you can't deny it any longer.  Hopefully it will be soon!

angelsnight

I am the same way.  On one hand I'm very excited, but I also feel detached.  A friend (who is also a loss mom) suggested it's our hearts way of thinking it can protect itself.  I felt really bad the other day when I realized I still have the u/s picture in my purse for over a week, and hadn't looked at it since the day we got it. 

I am also waiting as long as humanly possible to tell people at work because I don't want to deal with the "squeee, you're pregnant!  How are you feeling, do you hope it's a boy or girl, blah blah".  I don't really want to talk about it, so the longer they are in the dark the better.

hoping4more

I too am right there with you. We had an early loss in February so we are about to go for beta #4. They all look great but still paranoid!

tinymep

Wow, it feels really good to know I am not alone.  Thank you ladies, reading all of your responses definitely helped me just embrace this and take one day at a time.