Pregnant after IF

Messing with my paif brain. Reassurance?

So this must be the IF sneaking into my PAIF brain that simply cannot relax and enjoy being pregnant. I don't know why I am so nervous about m/c. Not just any m/c, MISSED m/c. I know it is a very real fear and a valid concern. I don't have any symptoms to suggest a m/c, but I know this does not stop a missed m/c, and I have my first OB appt tomorrow. I guess I'm just afraid of the worst thing happening, which is to lose both of my bebes. I'm weaning off of my meds, since I will be 10 weeks in a few days. I'm feeling kind of crazy, I don't know why or how I am doing this to myself. Thanks for reading my nonsense.

On 10/23/13 Baby Sophie and Baby Gabriel born at 21+5 weeks. They grew wings and flew away from us. May God bless them always. We love you beans!
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Re: Messing with my paif brain. Reassurance?

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    Oh yeah, it's the PAIF brain!  I'm a bit earlier than you, but every.single.time, I fret and worry that the next blood draw or ultrasound will be bad news.  I still feel like it's coming and haven't really enjoyed being pregnant yet.  Try to enjoy it and hopefully the worrying will subside or shift focus to a new set of worries that comes with parenthood!
    TTC #1 since November 2011
    Me 32, DH 32
    Dx: Unexplained IF
    RE consult October 2012 
    Clomid and IUI Nov 2012-March 2013 BFNs
    IVF#1 on CD10! April 2013 - ER (27 retrieved, 19 fertilized) 4/21 - ET cancelled due to OHSS. 10 frosties 
    FET#1 w/ one blast May 2013-BFN
    FET #2 w/ one blast July 2013-BFP!!! Beta 9dp5dt: 129 Beta 13dp5dt: 867 Beta 20dp5dt: 13621 Beta 27dp5dt: 53341 U/S #1: 7/31 heartbeat 127 measuring right on time EDD March 20th, 2014
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    I am right there with you. Every twinge or cramp just has me on edge. I wish I could relax and enjoy this pregnancy.


     TTC since 9/10 consult 1/12 All testing came back fine Diagnosed with Unexplained infertility -3 medicated IUI's All BFN IVF - ER 11/14 24R, 15M, 13F ET 11/19, BETA 11/28 BFFN --Next step FET in Jan ET scheduled for 1/24. Beta #1 350 Beta #2 735. U/S Hell. miscarriage D&C at 9weeks. FET #2 ET 5/28 cancelled FET# 2.5 6/26 ET Beta 7/5 302 7/7 Beta #2 632 Everyone welcome

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    I felt that way until the NT Scan. Now I'm nice and calm. Hang in there a few more weeks and you'll see your LO and feel relief.
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    Feel the same way. And with good reason since I lost one last time and this time. Now I wonder how long this baby will last. I'm nervous for my US tomorrow and first OB appt Friday
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    i think its sooo normal for us PAIF gals to feel like this.  i'm over 13 weeks and still worried about each and every appointment.  i heard it gets a little easier when you can start feeling the baby/babies for reassurance.  
    Me (37) DH (39); PCOS changed to Unexplained, changed to DOR in 2012 (finally a correct diagnosis!); 
    Started TTC 2009 with RE after 6 months.  
    Clomid + Trigger x2; 
    IUI + Femara x1,
    IUI + Follistim x2;
    IVF #1 (MDL) February 2013- BFN.
    IVF #2 (antagonist) May 2013, First BFP of my life. 
    Identical twin miracle BOYS (!!) headed our way- due date is technically 2/4/14 but c section is scheduled for 1/7! 

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    I still feel like this when I haven't felt him move very often. I will say a doppler in early pregnancy kept me sane. I have a singleton, so I don't know if this would help with two but I listened to my little one almost daily up until recently when he started kicking me in the ribs.

    Hope the anxiety eases. We all understand where you're coming from.

    Me- 32, DH- 32- TTC for 4 Years
    IUIs 1-6 BFN
    IVF #1= BFP- M/C
    FET- Beta#1: 69, #2: 482, #3: 1088, #4: 28,318, Ultrasound- 1 beautiful heartbeat
    It's a boy!

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    A missed m/c is the biggest fear I have right now as well.  Our first u/s went well and we saw a h/b.  this Friday I have another one and I am terrified of seeing nothing.  It is def PAIF brain, and I hope that it calms down ~for all of us!~ sooner rather than later.

    I feel like I am "pretending" at being excited a lot of the time, but it's the closest I can come right now!  GL and I hope your upcoming appt. gives you some good news and eases your mind!

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    TTC since 2008
    Dh:34, no issues.  Me:31, Endo, slightly hypothyroid, deformed ovary, paracentric inversion.
    4 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone +TI cycles= all BFN
    Lap in 2012 to remove large unresolving cyst discovered endo and double lobed ovary.
     6 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone IUI cycles= All BFN,
    1st IVF w/ICSI- June '13 Antagonist: Gonal-F, Menopur, Ganirelix, HcG, Estradiol, Crinone= 7 retrieved, 4 mature, 1 unfertilized, 2 abnormally fertilized, 1 normally fertilized.  2DT of only embryo and our miracle BFP.
    Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
    2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!!  5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP!  Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9  Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2  Beta 3  14dp5dt: 497  Please be our sticky rainbow baby!

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    I hope so too. I'm sorry that any of us have this on our minds. Thanks for all the support!
    On 10/23/13 Baby Sophie and Baby Gabriel born at 21+5 weeks. They grew wings and flew away from us. May God bless them always. We love you beans!
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    Phoebe Jaslene born at 19w3d. We love you beba! Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

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    I'm almost 30 weeks and still feel this way! I had a missed m/c with this baby's twin after hearing the hb and it totally caused anxiety for me. I finally broke down and went to a therapist and she was awesome! Helped me realize that I have more intuition into my body than I realize and I am able to feel the difference between PAIF anxiety and when there's something really wrong. It's kept me sane these last several months.

    I chose not to use a Doppler, only because of my anxiety, I found myself stressing and obsessing more about hearing something or not, or is that mine, etc.

    Hang in there, you're definitely not alone!!
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    I've felt like this before nearly every single appointment I've had so far! I think most of us PAIFers go through waves of emotion like this, and I'm not sure when/if it gets better. I started feeling a lot better after my first OB appointment, but I still get a little crazy from time to time!

    Hopefully you'll get a good look at your babies at your OB appointment and start feeling more confident in your body and comfortable with your pregnancy very soon!
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    TTC #1 since March 2011
    Dx = Unexplained IF
    1 medicated TI cycle & 4 clomid IUIs = all BFNs
    June 2013 IVF #1 = 6 frosties + BFP!
    DS1 born 2/14

    TTC #2 since December 2014
    May 2015 unassisted BFP ended in m/c at 7wks
    April 2016 FET #1 = BFN
    June 2016 FET #2 = c/p
    August 2016 FET #3 = BFP!
    DS2 born 4/17
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