I was inconsolable last night for about an hour and cried like I never have in my life. Took a Unisom and finally cried myself to sleep. I could physically feel my heart breaking, I swear.
This morning my husband let me sleep and he got up to greet all the daycare kids and their parents. I love him.
About 10 am the feeling that I was bleeding onto the bed came over me, and I was. I quickly passed several clot like pieces and when I wiped I saw the baby, the spine, white colored pieces of it everywhere so you know that's what it has to be. I stared for a moment at it and yelled for my husband so I could give him the opportunity to view it if he wanted. He did. I took a shower and now I am just numb. It's not everyday you see your baby on a piece of toilet paper.
I hear this gets better everyday. I hope that is true. How can something I only knew for a week make me so unbelievably sad that I can't function?
My friends are avoiding me like the plague, too. It would be nice if someone reached out. Anyone, at this point.
I'm so sorry you are going through this. It will get easier as time goes on. You will have good days and bad days. Take care of yourself and come here for the support!
I am so so sorry. Going to the bathroom and seeing tissue sent me over the edge. I sobbed when this happened. The whole idea of it was more than I could handle. For me, this was the worst part. Then, ever so slowly, as time went by I started feeling just a bit better. I could go short time periods without dwelling on it. In the mean time, lean on your husband and anyone else you have. Be kind to yourself. T and P your way.
I'm so sorry that you are going through this. It especially sucks when you don't feel like you have your friends to support you It will still be hard after today, but it really does get a little bit easier with each passing day. Take care of yourself today!
BFP#1 6/27/13 EDD 3/5/14 MC 7/16/13 BFP#2 11/25/13 EDD 8/4/14
My heart aches for you. So glad you have your H for support, and us too, of course. ((Hugs)) take good care of yourself.
Began trying for a baby January 2012 BFP 4.25.2013 EDD 1.3.2014 MMC 6.3.2013 D&C 6.19.2013 BFP 11.3.2013 CP 11.6.2013 BFP 3.31.2014 EDD 12.10.2014 Baby boy Carlson born 12.19.2014
Re: Passed the baby this morning
BFP#1 6/27/13 EDD 3/5/14 MC 7/16/13
BFP#2 11/25/13 EDD 8/4/14
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Began trying for a baby January 2012
BFP 4.25.2013 EDD 1.3.2014 MMC 6.3.2013 D&C 6.19.2013
BFP 11.3.2013 CP 11.6.2013
BFP 3.31.2014 EDD 12.10.2014 Baby boy Carlson born 12.19.2014