I'm sad (long)

DMD3443

I had DS at 38 weeks via scheduled c/s because I was dealing with high BP and had been on bedrest since 35 weeks. Never got pre-e, just high BP. After I had him I developed severe "postpartum hypertension" where my BP reached extremely dangerous levels and I ended up in the hospital 3 times in the first two weeks after he was born. I take 3 BP pills a day, and my pressures have been great so my doc is finally starting to wean me off, but he says it will probably be 6 months before I'm off them completely. According to mayo clinic, this is something that "just happens" to a few hundred women a year (lucky me) for unknown reasons and will eventually go away.

I never developed ppd (it's amazing that I didnt now that I think about it), but I'm starting to feel a little sad. I know I should be happy that DS is healthy and nothing bad happened, but it sucks that I still have to deal with this. Every time I get even a little headache I'm running to check my BP, and I'm paranoid about leaving the house without my meds just in case.

What's worse is that I've been told it will almost definitely return with future pregnancies and I will likely have to be on meds for the whole gestation. I want more kids, but DH doesnt know if it's a good idea and is afraid it will be too risky.

I just wish that everything had gone well and I didnt have to worry. I want to get pg again in like a year, but it puts a damper on the excitement to know that I will probably have this again and it makes it a very scary thought for me.

I've been dealing really well but today I'm just sad. Thanks for listening.

cloud9climber

((((big hug))))

J+O

High BP is one of the #1 signs of pre-e. ?That's odd they said you didn't have it.

I had it, my signs were high BP, protein in my urine & the last straw was lots of swelling all the sudden.

I was on BP medication for weeks after having Jack. ?It was sky high.... scary high. ?My mother is a nurse and would come over daily to check me out. ?Finally when I gave in and started to rest like I was suppose to things started to get better. ?I was on the meds for two months though.

jasonlovessara

It is hard when a pregnancy does not go as "planned".  When I left the hospital and had to leave my babies in the NICU, it killed me... It has helped a little to realize that I have it better than other moms but it still doesn't take away what the circumstances were/are.  I still get upset at times. 
I hope you feel better soon and that you take solace in this board and use it to vent and hopefully 2009 will be a great year for you!

DMD3443

J+O:

High BP is one of the #1 signs of pre-e.  That's odd they said you didn't have it.

I had it, my signs were high BP, protein in my urine & the last straw was lots of swelling all the sudden.

I was on BP medication for weeks after having Jack.  It was sky high.... scary high.  My mother is a nurse and would come over daily to check me out.  Finally when I gave in and started to rest like I was suppose to things started to get better.  I was on the meds for two months though.

I know I thought it was weird they never called it pre-e either. (I'm a nurse too). But I never had protein in my urine (I had trace one time but that's it), so they said it wasnt. I did have a lot of swelling but they still said no.

J+O

And personally I wouldn't worry about having more kids until you're ready. ?I'm sure you don't plan on getting pregnant anytime soon hopefully considering your BP is high. ?Let your body heal and revisit the idea later. ?I was told Pre-e.... the second time around you're less likely to have it if you stay with the same practice. ?That's just what I heard though. ?It really sounds like pre-e. ?Pre-e your blood pressure goes up and causes damage to your organs... that's basically what it is. ?And what you get Elclampsia (sp?) that's when your body had enough and starts to basically shut down. ?Hence the reason for medication to control the blood pressure so damage is not done.

Mrs.Rose

That does suck.  I was induced due to high BP - no pre-e diagnosis for me either, just gestational hypertension.  I am sorry you still have to deal with this!  Try not to worry about your future pregnancies - you will be able to take meds with this from the beginning and keep it in better control than this time, when it snuck up on you unexpectedly.  Feeling bummed is totally normal, and you should do something to pamper yourself, like ice cream or a pedi. 

  

J+O

DMD3443:

J+O:

High BP is one of the #1 signs of pre-e. ?That's odd they said you didn't have it.

I had it, my signs were high BP, protein in my urine & the last straw was lots of swelling all the sudden.

I was on BP medication for weeks after having Jack. ?It was sky high.... scary high. ?My mother is a nurse and would come over daily to check me out. ?Finally when I gave in and started to rest like I was suppose to things started to get better. ?I was on the meds for two months though.

I know I thought it was weird they never called it pre-e either. (I'm a nurse too). But I never had protein in my urine (I had trace one time but that's it), so they said it wasnt. I did have a lot of swelling but they still said no.

Have you run this by anyone else? ?This totally sounds like pre-e. ?It's really common in my family... and my mother, sister & me all had it. ?You had all the signs, and just because only one time protein showed up doesn't mean you didn't have pre-e.

DMD3443

J+O:

DMD3443:

J+O:

High BP is one of the #1 signs of pre-e.  That's odd they said you didn't have it.

I had it, my signs were high BP, protein in my urine & the last straw was lots of swelling all the sudden.

I was on BP medication for weeks after having Jack.  It was sky high.... scary high.  My mother is a nurse and would come over daily to check me out.  Finally when I gave in and started to rest like I was suppose to things started to get better.  I was on the meds for two months though.

I know I thought it was weird they never called it pre-e either. (I'm a nurse too). But I never had protein in my urine (I had trace one time but that's it), so they said it wasnt. I did have a lot of swelling but they still said no.

Have you run this by anyone else?  This totally sounds like pre-e.  It's really common in my family... and my mother, sister & me all had it.  You had all the signs, and just because only one time protein showed up doesn't mean you didn't have pre-e.

Believe me I've asked both OBs in my practice, 3 ER docs, a cardiologist, endocrinologist, and my internal med doctor. And my records were sent to mayo clinic for evaluation. They all agree not pre-e. Weird I know. But I guess it's because my BP didnt reach dangerous levels until almost 2 weeks postpartum. Apparently even though pre-e can occur after delivery, it usually is within a few days. That's what they tell me anyway. And they said if it was really pre-e that it would have resolved by 3 months, which it hasnt because I still spike sometimes if I don't take my meds. That's why they are saying postpartum hypertension. It's rare I guess.  

HollyLuv

I totally understand. I am sure it is just started to all catch up with you since you had such a rollercoaster ride. I was also diagnosed with severe hypertension after not having any high blood pressure readings my entire pregnancy. The swelling was unbelievable right after she was born and I literally looked like a different person. That was really upsetting to me since all of my first pics with my DD will always look like a stranger to me. I hope you feel better and just know you are not alone~

mrskadams

I totally know how you feel because I'm in the same boat.  I had chronic high bp, but it was controlled by meds until 36 w 4 d.  They tested my urine and bloodwork repeatedly, but they found no pre-e.  I had my scheduled c/s at 39 weeks.  I went home on Sunday but was readmitted by Monday morning with bp at 200/113, and they put me on magnesium sulfate.  Ten days later it's still really high.  I'm on 5 bp pills a day, and I go back to the doctor tomorrow.  I'm so sad that it's taking me so long to get better.  I can't do anything yet and don't see the meds working.  They will probably need to switch me to something stronger which will kill my already low supply.  I keep crying because the road to recovery is so slow.  I need to get better in order to take care of my other kids and dd.

Good luck with everything and feel free to page me anytime.  At least you're starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel!