You remind me SO much of my friend Kate (the one that I vent all of my frustrations too) and your responses to my life/situations is almost point on for her responses.
I wish I knew IRL and I would stage an intervention. What goes on in your marriage is nowhere near normal or healthy IMO. This is how the scene you posted about would go down in my house
Me: Ian what is your deal do you not want me to go because these comments are annoying me
Ian: No, please go it is just going to be so hard for me
Me: Well then you better get on the phone and make "what if" arrangements because I am going on this trip and you are not going to make me feel bad about it
See, I don't say those things because, again, it will just lead to ME feeling even worse. Because it will get HIM upset/angry/whatever. Then I will feel as though I stressed him out even more and then it just comes back to me.
ARGH!
This time though, I haven't even said once (which is so unlike me) "What, do you want me to stay home?" I'm not saying that because well, it's NOT happening. I AM going. And I'm leaving any guilt feelings I have about it at home.
I'm sure he counts o your feeling bad for him. It's an easy way to control you and make you think you are the one with the problem.
I absolutely HATE to think this of him. Seriously, it makes me hate him. So I like to think that he doesn't do it on purpose and that isn't his intent. However, I'm am slowly beginning to realize that it IS on purpose --- hence my huge confliction with my marriage as of late.
Re: maybaby and grace
I wish I knew IRL and I would stage an intervention. What goes on in your marriage is nowhere near normal or healthy IMO. This is how the scene you posted about would go down in my house
Me: Ian what is your deal do you not want me to go because these comments are annoying me
Ian: No, please go it is just going to be so hard for me
Me: Well then you better get on the phone and make "what if" arrangements because I am going on this trip and you are not going to make me feel bad about it
Simple and to the point
See, I don't say those things because, again, it will just lead to ME feeling even worse. Because it will get HIM upset/angry/whatever. Then I will feel as though I stressed him out even more and then it just comes back to me.
ARGH!
This time though, I haven't even said once (which is so unlike me) "What, do you want me to stay home?" I'm not saying that because well, it's NOT happening. I AM going. And I'm leaving any guilt feelings I have about it at home.
I absolutely HATE to think this of him. Seriously, it makes me hate him. So I like to think that he doesn't do it on purpose and that isn't his intent. However, I'm am slowly beginning to realize that it IS on purpose --- hence my huge confliction with my marriage as of late.