Rough Day Today
sammer818
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Anyone got any hugs or good thoughts for me? My SIL is having her baby today...a scheduled c-section this morning. She has told me multiple times that she is indifferent to having a baby and has never once actually expressed any happiness about having this child or being pregnant. It will be the first grandchild for MIL and I can't help but get so sad and so angry that it's not us. We had been trying for so long when they got pg, and I always expected we would be the first. They don't even have the nursey done yet (as of yesterday afternoon). I mean, this c-section has been scheduled for weeks....it's ridiculous.
I also found out this morning that another couple friend of ours is pregnant. I'm happy for them, but I'm so hurt for me. I can't help but already get upset. I don't fit in with any of my friends anymore - they either have children or are pregnant. We told all of our friends about our 5th loss and not even all of them asked me at the time if I was ok or said they were sorry we were going through that. Now, we've had another one and they all talk about me when I'm not around about how I'll handle another baby or another pregnancy, but only ONE friend has ever asked if I'm ok. I feel like I'm the elephant in the room and that no one actually cares about me anymore.
To make it even worse, DH hasn't been feeling well (not in the cold/flu kind of way, but really dizzy and his balance is off kind of way). That is scary because it's not a normal cold or something and he is kind of a loss of what type of doctor to go to. If it were up to me, right now, I would just give up totally and run away with DH to Italy for the rest of our lives.
This post doesn't even begin to cover everything that is currently going on in our lives, but I had to at least get some of it out. I'm just in real need of some extra love, support, or anything else anyone has to offer. Thanks ladies. I hope your Monday is starting out infinitely better than mine.
TTC since April 2010
BFP #1 – March 2011, missed m/c April 2011
BFP #2 – October 2011, m/c November 2011
Surprise BFP #3 – December 2011, diagnosed as cornual, terminated January 2012
BFP #4 – June 2012, m/c July 2012
Diagnosed with bicornuate ute and MTHR gene mutation
BFP #5 – October 2012, missed m/c November 2012
BFP #6 – January 2013, m/c March 2013
No longer TTC. Diagnosis: Hostile ute. Heartbroken and bitter. Pursuing surrogacy.
June 2013 - Carrier found! Could this really happen?!
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Re: Rough Day Today
I'm SO sorry that you're having a rough day. I can relate to your feeling like the elephant in the room, thats how I felt yesterday at H's family's Easter dinner..and it sucks.
I hope your H is able to get checked out to see whats going on, and I
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BFP#1-11/12/12, MMC 1/16/13-baby stopped growing @ 9wks, found out at 13wks, D&E 1/25/13
BFP#2-4/23/13 EDD-01/02/14 baby BOY born 12/31/13 Michael Cameron
BFP#1 9/9/12 -- EDD 5/14/13 -- MMC 10/10/12 Miso 10/19/12
BFP #2 9/17/13 -- EDD 5/25/14-- CP confirmed 9/21/13
BFP #3 2/1/14 -- EDD 10/5/14 -- NMC 2/10/14
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I'm so sorry, Sammer. Your sil sounds like a pill - I hope you can at least avoid her for the next little while.
I hope yh's health issues turn out to be nothing to worry about - you may have already checked this out, but one not-scary possibili
BFP #1 08/05/12. EDD 4/15/13 m/c 08/27/12
BFP #2 06/05/13. EDD 2/16/2014 (Team Blue). Baby Wombat born 2/20/2014 7lb. 11oz and 20 in.
I'm sorry. (((hugs))) Sounds like you and DH need some alone time and need to do something for yourselves. Take a weekend away or something if you can to get your mind off things.
I'm sorry that your friends are handling your l
BFP #2 February 2009 | m/c March 2009 | 4 weeks 3 days
BFP #7 10/15 | DS born 6/4/16 @ 36 weeks
BFP #8 9/28/17 AHHH!!! | EDD 6/6/18
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Very sorry you are having a rough day. Having been on the "other" side (having a friend with a loss and others with pregnancies/babies), I now realize you have no idea what people go through. Even in this day and age, it seems almost taboo to speak of
BFP #2 5/7/13 EDD 1/14/2014 Ectopic discovered 5/21/13, lost left tube
Referred to RE, blood work done August 2013, AMH 0.27, all else normal, HSG clear
BFP #1 5.26.08 DD born 1.4.09
BFP #2 3.11.12 m/c 3.26.12
BFP #3 10.7.12 m/c 10.27.12
BFP #4 2.24.13 ectopic MTX 3.13.13 Right tube removed 3.29.13
BFP #5 5.27.13 DS born 1.22.14
BFP #6 4.14.16
BFP #3 -mm/c @ 7wks, discovered at 9wks, D&C 9/28
BFP #4 5/29 EDD 2/9 - please be our rainbow
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BFP 12/17/2011,EDD 8/23/12,ectopic discovered 12/29/11 at 6 weeks recieved methotrexate
Dec '12 HSG & ultrasound showed abnormalities & more endo. Laproscopic surgery in January '13 showed significant damage & scar tissue from Endo. IVF is our best shot to concieve our rainbow.
June '13 Decided to go the adoption route!
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Missed MC 11/17/10 Our little miracle born 1/27/12 Natural MC 7/19/12 Missed MC 1/22/13 Our family is complete DD 12/27/13
Abnormal ANA, PAI-1 4G/4G homozygous
Sending you so, so many of the hugest, squishiest hugs. I am going through all of the same feelings you are describing. It sucks so much, and I wish I could change it for you, sammer.
I hope that whatever is going on with your DH clea
TTC since March 2010 ~ Dx Unexplained IF September 2011
2011: IUI + Clomid = CP#1
2012: 3 more IUIs + Clomid = 3 more CPs. One on-our-own pg, also CP
2013: BTB IUI + Lupron/Follistim/Prometrium/PIO = CP #6
IF testing, RPL testing, Autoimmune testing = all normal
So lost.
(((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))) Sammer!
I am so so sorry honey. I know there is nothing I, or anyone, can say that can really make you feel better right now. So I'm just sending so many hugs and T&Ps your way.
THE DARK SIDE IT IS
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BFP 8/2/12 EDD 4/9/13 Addie was delivered 1/4/13 at 26 weeks due to Eclampsia
BFP 9/15/14 EDD 5/28/15 Please be our R A I N B O W take home baby BOY
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DX: Septate Uterus. Septum resection 6/4/13
I'm sorry love, that is tough. Other than my mother & sister's, I have one friend who is brave enough to just simply ask me how I'm doing. Everyone else totally avoids the topic. I understand if they do not know what to say, but even so much as a t
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12/4/12 Luke & Kyle born @ 18 weeks
SHG+ Hysteroscopy+ FET= BFP | Cerclage+ Lovenox+ 5m Bed Rest
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TTC since August 2011
BFP#1 3/16/12 EDD 11/21/12 Delivered 6/1/12 at 15 weeks 2 days
"If there ever comes a day when we can't be together... Keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever." ~ Winnie the Pooh
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TTC Since 8/2011
BFP #1 5/13/12 * EDD 1/24/13 * MC at 7 wks 4 days on 6/11/12
BFP #2 5/13/13 * Current EDD 1/23/14
Baby N born 2/8/14
*8.31.16* mc @ 8 weeks DnC {genetic testing, new medications upon next pregnancy}
*7.17.16* praying everyday for my rainbow baby {progesterone supplements, blood thinning injections}
BFP#1 9/5/12, MMC, MC confirmed 10/9/12,
D&C 12/12/12 BFP#2 7/30/13, EDD 4/12/14, DS born 4/14/14
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Surprise BFP 5/15/12, EDD 1/29/13, mm/c @ 8wks, discovered at 11wks, D&C 7/11/12
AF finally arrived on Christmas after 167 days of waiting.
TTA until January 2014
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BFP #1 3.16.12. mmc 5.7.12 at 11 weeks ~Avery Cameron~
BFP #2 12.12.12. mmc 1.22.13 at 10 weeks ~Theodore Michael~
D&C #2 Chromosome analysis results: Translocation Trisomy 14
My RPL Testing: Homozygous MTHFR, normal karyotype
DH's karyotype results: Robertsonian Translocation 13:14
BFP #3 9.10.13 mc at 4 weeks~Our little May Flower~
BFP #4 10.13.13- Our Rainbow Baby, a little girl, arrived June 25, 2014!
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RE testing results: DH- normal ME- DX:PCOS and One copy of MTHFR gene
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No 2nd IUI but instead TI with Metformin, Baby Asprin, Neevo and Prometrium
BFP #4 5/4/13-EDD 1/19/14- grow little one, grow!
Beta #1@15DPO HCG-95, progesterone-25 Beta #4@24DPO HCG-2498, progesterone-30, 1st U/S 6mm,133BPM 2nd U/S 1.6cm, 167 BPM
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