TTC After a Loss
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All aboard the Tuesday Crazy Train!
This is the place to vent about symptoms, obsessing over your chart, BFNs at 5DPO, 2WW stress, etc. Everyone is welcome to post!
Your level of crazy on a scale of 1 - 10:
CD/DPO:
Can I just __________ already?
Signs/Symptoms:
Additional Crazy Here:
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CD/DPO: CD 25 / 6DPO Can I just BE READY TO TEST already?Signs/Symptoms: nothing to report since I have a cold and it's got me all out of whack. Additional Crazy Here: Traveling internationally tomorrow with a cold....13 hours on two planes. Going to BILs wedding where SIL is due 2 weeks before I was. I'm pimply and greasy like a teen again. Argh. Hated leaving puppy behind. Dreading and anticipating this trip at the same time.
Lots of (((hugs))). That is a lot going on. I hope that you are feeling better soon. Travelling and 2WWs are no fun when you are sick. Good luck with the wedding, it is really hard to see someone so close to where you should be.
This. I hope you get through it all in on piece! I hope you feel better soon!
It's good that you are keeping the crazy in check, but I understand why this is exciting! Have fun getting busy
UGH..anxiously awaiting AF to return...the wait seems like forever (even though it hasn't been)
My level of crazy: 4
CD/DPO: 18 days post m/c, 20 days post when spotting started
Can I just ovulate already?
Signs/Symptoms: Nothing really...low BBT, negative OPK. I have long cycles normally though so I actually won't expect anything until Friday and since I'm post m/c it could take longer
....really hope it doesn't though!!
Additional Crazy: Hmmmmm...not really all that much beyond what I've already discussed on other boards so I won't bore you with more of the same details. Wishing you ladies well!!!
Okay, can I first say how excited I am to actually qualify to post here. Seriously, I never thought I'd see this day.. *sigh* it's been a long 5 months but I am officially TTC!!!!!!!!
Your level of crazy on a scale of 1 - 10: 8
CD/DPO:CD14
Can I just GET CROSSHAIRS already?
Signs/Symptoms: none
Additional Crazy Here: I've never actually TTC using FF so I have to admit that I was a little crazy this month with trying to time everything just right. Poor DH didn't get a break from me and I was constantly nagging him to DTD. At one point he told me flat out that we couldn't proceed with this much "build up" because it seriously kills the mood. So, next month, I will not be telling him any details. He does not need to know when I O and what my chart looks like. I'll keep all that for my tree house discussions. LOL. But, regardless of the outcome this month, I'm just so grateful to finally be in the position to try again.
I'm sorry about your temp dropping this morning. It is hard not to let that get to you ((hugs)). I have also POAS at 7 dpo to get it out of my system, so you aren't alone there! Try to hold off a few more days!
It is really tough after a loss, there are so many things going on. And it is really frustrating when your body takes a while to get back to normal. I hope that you can ovulate soon and get yourself back on track ((hugs))
I am glad to see you here, finally!! Hopefully you get your CHs in another coupe of days. I would probably try to HIO today too if you can, give you one extra day. It is weird getting used to FF and everything and many ladies here have found that their DHs like to know as little as possible. We had a few issues our first month trying again because of the pressure on DH. I just usually call the shots in FW. I'll greet him at the door wearing next-to-nothing, or hop on in the am - he can't say no to those things! Good luck lovely!
((((hugs)))) Ashleen! I'm sorry that things are so rough and I really hope that this is your cycle. Breakouts are awful, and I haven't found anything to control hormonal ones (other than bcps, which defeat the purpose right now!). When do you plan on POAS?
Your level of crazy on a scale of 1 - 10: 5
CD/DPO: 30 days post D&C
Can I just ____do something______ already?
Signs/Symptoms: Random, inconsistent spotting with some red. Headaches. Mild cramping. Low BBT (although I don't trust my new thermometer), negative OPKs.
Additional Crazy Here: I guess I am in the same boat as krirecke. I have not seen any signs of O. The spotting is leading me to think my body is trying to AF, but I have no idea. Please ute do something!
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TTC #1 since June 2012
Current Status: IVF with ICSI and PGS
Genetic, RPL, SA and Fertility testing = Normal/Good HSG = All Clear
BFP #1 12.30.2012 || Blighted Ovum 02.05.2013 || D&C 02.11.2013
BFP #2 09.10.2013 || c/p 09.12.2013
BFP #3 12.1.2013 || mm/c 01.15.14 || D&C 01.21.14 chromosome abnormality
May 2014: Residual HCG and retained tissue found
05.13.2014: Hysteroscopy D&C to find and remove retained tissue
June 2014: Tissue sample results indicate a partial molar pregnancy
May - Aug 2014: TTA for monitoring and testing
08.21.2014: Hysteroscopy to remove minor scar tissue - the result of 3 D&Cs
Sept/Oct: IUI #1 Femara + Bravelle + Ovidrel = BFN
Oct/Nov: IUI #2 Femara + Ovidrel = BFN
Nov/Dec: IUI #3 Femara + Bravelle + Ovidrel = BFN
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Ugh, it is so frustrating when you are just waiting for an answer. Have you POAS yet? Do you know how long your LP usually is? I hope that you can get an answer really soon ((hugs))
((hugs)) This is a really frustrating and sad place to be. Are you charting with FF? If you link your chart in your signature we can take a look at your chart as well - sometimes it helps to have someone else's eyes on it. I hope that your body figures itself out soon. Try not to be too stressed, cycles can be really different after a loss and you can drive yourself crazy over it.
crazy level: 4 at cd14.
I'm a little crazy today because I either have a 48 hour bug or the flu and had a fever of 100.4 last night and worried that the high fever would be bad if for some odd reason I ovulated already and sperm met the egg when we had sex on cd12. Less we forget that I have been dealing with IF for 52 cycles and it's not like I've ever gotten PG on my own, but I guess I always have that small glimmer of hope and kind of wish if I was going to be sick why couldn't it have happened before possible O or during AF.
IUI#4 1/23/13 on 75iu x9 Follistim = BFP then chem preg m/c (Feb 2013)
IUI#5 BFN (April 2013)
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I love that you are able to ride the crazy train! MH prefers to be on a need to know basis. He absolutely does not want to feel like sex is a chore. I typically don't tell him we are in fw. It can be super stressful leading up to O because it makes timing really important but keeping DH ready and willing is pretty important.
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Even the conductors need a ride sometimes!! I can offer you a seat and some (((hugs))). That is a lot of +OPKs. I hope that this afternoon brings you a negative one, followed by a temp rise in the days to come. I'm sorry that your body isn't cooperating.
(((hugs))) I'm sorry. Those worries are normal but they still really suck. I hate that things like that happen at the worst times and just cause unnecessary worry. I hope that you are feeling better soon.
Good choice on not buying more sticks just yet! I hope that you can keep the crazy at bay for another couple of days. I find it impressive that your cycle seems to be so regular after losses and without being on anything like BCPs.
I have heard similar things before and also try to use them to keep calm. I hope that it works for you. These last few days before POAS really seem to drag. FX for you!
I've never tried Burt's Bees, but I have really sensitive skin. I'm currently using Vichy and it is one of the only things that has ever worked for me, but lately, it hasn't been helping with the hormonal breakouts (chin area, around O and again around AF). It feels like I just get it clearing up and it starts all over again! I hope that yours clears up soon, breakouts are awful.
Wow, go body! lol Wondfos are pretty awesome. I'm pretty cheap so I like that I can use those and not worry about wasting $10+ on one stick.
Don't feel bad...I would be the same way...So hard not to...so I don't have any in the house at all and I'm not tempted...I wanted to so bad after my loss as a way of checking my hormone levels and I resisted yay! The wait stinks...happy thoughts for you!! Glad you at least have a predictable cycle!
5 is pretty zen for 13dpo, good for you! Honestly, I don't put too much stock into CM, it isn't a really reliable predictor. When do you plan on testing, your chart is looking pretty!
Your level of crazy on a scale of 1 - 10: 5, I suppose?
CD/DPO: 21/3!!
Can I just __________ already? Be done with this cycle
Signs/Symptoms: I got my crosshairs this morning! I'm so flippin excited. Background: prior to the loss, it appeared I wasn't ovulating. I wasn't charting at the time, but I had months of no +OPKs, no peaks on the monitor, no EWCM. First month post-loss, and I got a peak on the monitor, EWCM AND a temp shift. I swear, it was the acupuncture that finally brought it on last cycle, and this gives me hope that it will continue to happen!
Additional Crazy Here: We're TTA this cycle immediately post-loss, so I'm irrationally worried that I'm wasting my only good month on not trying.
TTC #1 since 9/2012
BFP #1 2/16/13, EDD 10/13/13, CP 2/21/13
BFP #2 6/2/13
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That is all great news, I'm glad that your body is cooperating. I understand why you are worrying though, that is only normal. Are you continuing with the acupuncture?
Thanks! Definitely makes me feel better. ((HUGS)) back atcha for the hope!
TTC #1 since 9/2012
BFP #1 2/16/13, EDD 10/13/13, CP 2/21/13
BFP #2 6/2/13
Baby J-Bug 2/8/14 My Wedding Bio from back in the day
Thanks! Yes, I'm going back tonight. I haven't been able to go in a few weeks and I'm really looking forward to it.
TTC #1 since 9/2012
BFP #1 2/16/13, EDD 10/13/13, CP 2/21/13
BFP #2 6/2/13
Baby J-Bug 2/8/14 My Wedding Bio from back in the day
Oh that's good! I hope that it continues to help you!
CD 20, 5dpo
Can I just get a BFP already?
Signs/Symptoms: None
Additional Crazy: Huge temp drop today. I didn't sleep well, but if anything I expected that to give me a high temp. The temp drop, the lack of a clear temp shift, and lower than usual preO temps are really bothering the obsessive compulsive part of me. I just want a pretty chart, even though I know it doesn't mean a BFP.
TTC Since 8/2011
BFP #1 5/13/12 * EDD 1/24/13 * MC at 7 wks 4 days on 6/11/12
BFP #2 5/13/13 * Current EDD 1/23/14
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As the logical side of you knows, a pretty chart doesn't equal a BFP, and an "ugly" chart can still result in a BFP so try not to even think about it. In my experience, poor sleep doesn't necessarily make temps higher, so that low temp may be a reflection of your sleep. Either way, at 5DPO, I'm not sure that it means much. Try to keep yourself busy so that your mind stays off of this stuff. ((hugs))
Sounds like a good plan! Good luck, I hope that you can stay strong and hold out!
Your level of crazy on a scale of 1 - 10: 5
CD/DPO: CD 25
Can I just __________ already? Get this cycle over with
Signs/Symptoms: Still some cramping/twinges
Additional Crazy Here: Today's BFN brought me back down to reality. I'm pretty sure I'm out this cycle, but still holding out a tiny bit of hope while I wait for AF.
((hugs)) I'm sorry about the BFN. You aren't out until AF shows, but it is hard to stay positive.
km_md Thank you for the kind words. I will try to relax and allow my body time to figure things out.
For your viewing pleasure, my FF chart is https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/4276b9
Please excuse all the open circles and a few missed temps. Thanks!
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TTC #1 since June 2012
Current Status: IVF with ICSI and PGS
Genetic, RPL, SA and Fertility testing = Normal/Good HSG = All Clear
BFP #1 12.30.2012 || Blighted Ovum 02.05.2013 || D&C 02.11.2013
BFP #2 09.10.2013 || c/p 09.12.2013
BFP #3 12.1.2013 || mm/c 01.15.14 || D&C 01.21.14 chromosome abnormality
May 2014: Residual HCG and retained tissue found
05.13.2014: Hysteroscopy D&C to find and remove retained tissue
June 2014: Tissue sample results indicate a partial molar pregnancy
May - Aug 2014: TTA for monitoring and testing
08.21.2014: Hysteroscopy to remove minor scar tissue - the result of 3 D&Cs
Sept/Oct: IUI #1 Femara + Bravelle + Ovidrel = BFN
Oct/Nov: IUI #2 Femara + Ovidrel = BFN
Nov/Dec: IUI #3 Femara + Bravelle + Ovidrel = BFN
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As for your chart, the open circles make it a bit difficult to read, but I don't see any sign of ovulation yet. It will be hard, but try not to stress. A lot of women have delayed ovulation (or even no ovulation) right after a loss. I hope that it regulates soon for you.
I'm a dirty lurker on the Crazy Train, but I just had to say that I love, love, love seeing you here Pink Camino!
BFP #1, 3/12, EDD 11/9/12, MMC 3/27/12, D&C 4/10/12
BFP #2: 11/16/12, EDD 7/25/13, MMC 12/5/12, D&C 12/6/12, Complete molar pregnancy confirmed 2/9/13, benched for 6 months until August 2013
IUI #1, 8/16/13 Femara + Menopur, 3 mature follicles, BFN
IUI #3, 10/8/13 Femara + Menopur, six mature follicles, BFN
BFP #3, 12/9/2013, while on treatment break, EDD: 8/22/2014 Please stick and grow, LO!
Additional Dx: hypothyroidism, TgAb positive & anti-TPO positive, POR/DOR (2/2013), and suspected endometriosis
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Level of crazy: Started at 2 then rose to 10 now back to 2
CD27/12DPO
Can I just get AF already?
So...here is my crazy for the day...ladies do not pee directly on a wondfo, this causes pee to get all over the results area and can give you a false positive and way too much crazy. Waited for another bfn, saw the false positive, freaked, peed in a cup next time, bfn. Oh my way too crazy today.
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BFP #1 11/9/12, MMC/D&C 12/21/12 @ 9w2d, EDD 7/24/13
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Your level of crazy on a scale of 1 - 10: 2
CD/DPO: CD 4
Can I just _____reach CD 10 so I can get this IUI done_____ already?
Signs/Symptoms: Nothing really, just having an emotional day. My uncle was found deceased today by my grandpa and now my entire family is emotional. He was only 52. Everything is gloomy today and I could use a pick me up I guess.
Additional Crazy Here: Lacking sleep so going to bed early.
Big ((hugs)) I'm so sorry that this happened to you! Wondfos are supposed to be dipped, not peed on directly, but I'm sorry you had to find this out the hard way. False positives are awful.