Goodbye
jmlind
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It's been a really long time since I've posted, but I really want to say goodbye and share my story...
One month ago I gave birth to my beautiful, stillborn son. I hadn't been feeling the baby kick too much that week, but when I got a fever, then cramps, and then started bleeding, I knew it was time to go to the hospital. I thought that maybe I would give birth early, but I never thought that such a horrible thing would happen. I still can't really believe it.
I'm going back to work tomorrow for the first time, and I can't sleep. So as some form of closure I just wanted to share with you all what happened as I sit sleepless still in bed, unable to stop thinking about this...
I am so excited for all of you to give birth to beautiful children in a little over a month. Know that you are so lucky and please appreciate every moment of this last month of pregnancy - I wish I was here with you guys. Please value every moment - even those where no one gives you a seat on the subway, or when your ankles start to disappear - know that really, it's all worth it.
I wish you all the best.
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lovelylittleworld
BFP#2 1/12/12 ~ Missed M/C 8w2d
I am so, so sorry for your loss and hope that you can find the strength to make it through this first day back at work. If you haven't been there already, on the Loss board you can get and give support to other women with late-term, infant, or child losses.
Did you name your son?
BFP1: DD1 born April 2011 at 34w1d via unplanned c/s due to HELLP, DVT 1 week PP
BFP3: DD2 born Feb 2013 at 38w4d via unplanned RCS due to uterine dehiscence
DS1: Quinn - 10.22.10 and DS2: Cole - 01.18.13
growing a foosa
Good luck with your return to work. Just take it one day at a time.
I am sorry for your loss. I hate the fact that I know what yoru going through. Nov 2011 we lost our son. I feel your pain and I know what tolls are ahead of you. Going back to work for me was pretty hard. I to took about 4 weeks off after out loss. I promise you this. Each day will get a little better, things will never be the same and you willl never get over this. But you will find out there are days that you are able to handle this much better than you would have thought. You will always have room in your heart for your LO. You now have an angle looking after ya.
If you ever need anything please pm me. Also if need be there are a great group of ladies on a fb group for after a loss
I'm so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
I'm so sorry for your loss.. your family is in my thoughts and prayers tonight and i wish you strength to make it through.
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( I am tearing up. I am sooo sorry for your loss. I could not imagine. Sending you and your family prayers.