Update
irishgirl0525
member
I know several of you have seen my update on PG>35, but I just wanted to update over here, and also say thank you for all of the support and thoughts and prayers.
Unfortunately we did not see a heartbeat at our last ultrasound on Wednesday, and the baby had not grown since the week before. I was anxious about this week's ultrasound because even though we had seen the fetal pole the week before, it seemed to be measuring small. I really wish I hadn't been right.
I had a D&C yesterday morning. I haven't really cried much yet, a little bit here and there, but I am hoping that it will hit me soon and I can get it all out, and begin to move forward. I can't really put into words how I feel, there are a lot of things circling around in my head.
We are supposed to go to my aunt's house tonight for a Christmas party with extended family. If we had seen a heartbeat this week, we would have announced to the family tonight. Now I am thinking I really don't feel up to going, I don't want it to be a situation where I walk in and then feel like I need to turn around and walk out.
I don't know where we are or what our next steps will be, but I hope to be joining you back here in the next couple of months. I'm still lurking and I wish you all the very best of luck and a great holiday.
Re: Update
My Ovulation Chart
Me: 41 DH: 46. We are TTC our 1st, started July '11,
3 cycles clomid with Ob,
1 cycle Tamoxifen with Ob,
Diagnosed PCOS 11/5/12
clomid, trigger & timed bd 12/12 BFN
1st clomid IUI 1/4/13 BFN.
2nd clomid IUI 2/13 cancelled didn't respond to clomid.
3/15/13 scheduled laparoscopy & on bcp.
May 10 IUI from injectibles - BFN
May 22 done with interventions it will either happen or it won't.
February 2014 No longer actively trying, but not preventing.
SURPISE BFP 4/2/2015!!!!!!!!!!
Miscarriage 4/23/15
1st BFP-8/17/12! Missed Miscarriage discovered @ 8 week US. D&C.
2nd BFP-2/13/13! Blighted Ovum discovered @ 8 week US. Natural miscarriage.
3rd BFP-5/22/13! By early June, progesterone plummeting. Another loss.
August 2013 - started Donor Egg process, but surprise BFP with my own eggs.
Dear Son born 5/28/14
TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
DE IVF #3 1/14 ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d
DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!
K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days
SAIF/PAIF Welcome
http://waitingforraintostop.wordpress.com
I am so sorry for your loss. I have you and your husband in my thoughts and prayers. Wishing you strength to get through this tuff time. ((Hugs))
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
Thank you ladies. I decided not to go to the party tonight. I know my cousin will be there with her 6 month old and even though I haven't seen him yet, I think it's better if I just meet him another time.
I am really sorry! hugs!
I'm really sorry for your loss. I'm glad you made the best choice for yourself in regards to the party.
Take care.
Elizabeth 5yrs old Jane 3yrs old
Take all the time you need.