C-sections
Acdett24
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Feeling like a failure!
Acdett24
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I had to have an emergency c/s with my first child. I started out having a normal delivery, I was even pushing. But then my son's heartrate dropped too much, too fast and my doctor said we had to go in and get him. I do NOT regret that descion because I know that it saved his life. His cord was wrapped around his neck. Where I feel like a failure is now. We are trying to have another child and I was told that I can not have a VBAC because of too much scar tissue. I feel like my body has betrayed me. I feel like I was not strong enough to heal the way that I was suppose to. Am I the only one who feels this way?
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Re: Feeling like a failure!
I feel this way as well. I had an emergency C section after 3 hours of pushing only to realize LO's head would not fit through my pelvic bones and it would be dangerous to try with forceps (for fear of his collarbone breaking). I had a pretty traumatic C section as his head was stuck in my pelvis and ended up gatting several tears in my uterus.
Now I will never be able to have a vaginal birth as my uterus is too scarred. It is depressing everytime I think about it and I am tearing up even typing this! I feel like I let myself down
Owen Matthew 11/1/2009 4lbs 10oz 16.5in
Born 5 weeks early by C/S | Severe Pre-Eclampsia
BFP #2 5/1/2011 | M/C @ 7 weeks | D&C 5/25/2011
TTC #2 | HSG Clear | SA 2% Morph otherwise great
3 failed Femara/TI cycles moving on to IUI
As someone who tried for a VBAC and failed I sort of wish I had been told from the get-go that a VBAC wouldn't work for me. Then I wouldn't have been disappointed over the failed VBAC.
I think that csections can be hard on a lot of us as we lose a lot of the control and the experience of giving birth that we were planning on for so long. I will say even though I had a lot of complications during surgery, the csection recovery this time has been easier mentally and physically.