Trouble TTC
brideonjuly8
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uggggh, I'm so embarrassed. :(
brideonjuly8
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in Trouble TTC
I just emotionally vomitted infront of my SIL and my DH's aunt about our IF woes.
Complete with ugly cries. In a restaurant.
Hold me.
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Re: uggggh, I'm so embarrassed. :(
I had a few too many glasses of wine at a work function a few weeks ago and over shared big time. I really am quite an open person (because I wear my emotions on my sleeve, tipsey or not) so I am not too bothered by it.
Try not to worry about, many of us do it!
"Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..."
Don't worry about it! I have been there! However, I for some reason, chose co-workers! Now that is all I hear about just about everyday from these women. I feel like I have a therapy session everytime I walk in the door.
Try not to let it bother you. TTC is frustrating and emotional, especially when there are complications.
Me:34 Type 1 Diabetes, Ankylosing Spondylitis, Hypothyroid DH:35 Perfect
DX: Unexplained IF
Many IUI's with various meds all BFFN
IVF #1 11/11 canceled due to OHSS
IVF #2 Feb/March 2012 ET of 2 on day 3 4/7 BFP! 5/1 u/s blighted ovum
IVF #3 July 2012 ET of 3 on day 3 7/24 BFP!
Healthy baby girl born at 36w4d on 3/9/13
TTC#3
IVF #5 June 2018- PGS planned, no surviving embryos
IVF #6 August 2018- ET of 2 on day 3 - Chemical pregnancy
IVF #7 August 2019-....?
Emotional vomit can always be hard to look at in hindsight. But I'm sure it was good to get it all out...no matter where. ((HUGS)) Hope they were understanding.
I know tonight my mom said something about if my Cousin's Angie & Jenny both have their 1 year old girls willing to not wiggle too much I might have them on my lap a bunch on Thursday. I said, no I will probably be getting AF on Thursday so I might not feel up to holding them. She said "Oh, I know! In my 30's I always had massive cramps." I said, no Mom, not cramps but the heartbreak of holding a child with the idea I might never have my own...that reason. It's harder when I get my period." And started tearing up. She was just silent for a minute and then was like "Oh yeah, that too."
IUI#4 1/23/13 on 75iu x9 Follistim = BFP then chem preg m/c (Feb 2013)
IUI#5 BFN (April 2013)
S/PAIFW , S/PALW
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Hey, I would almost consider you lucky. I am soooooo frustrated because so many people at my church who are supposed to be "loving, supportive Christians" are so judgmental! I can't say anything about infertility, ttc, or wanting a baby w/o someone going to my pastor complaining, blah blah blah blah blah! I mean really! This is supposed to be a momentous, special, joyful, wonderful time and thing to look forward to and I can't say anything because they can't get their minds out of the gutter and just automatically think BEDROOM when something like that is said. Plus I've been trying for almost 10 months, i have pcos and this is just disheartening. I'm only 19 for goodness sakes! I need encouragement not judgement!
P.S. it's not that my church is bad it's just that there are some nasty people who happen to go there
P.P.S. So sorry for using your post to vent.
I'm hoping they were supportive!
As embarrassing as that must've been, I'm a little jealous. We are so far in the closet...
TTC since March/April 2010
DX: MFI - less than 1 million sperm, 26% motility
DH put on anastrozole to increase counts
June/July 2011 100 mg Clomid + TS IUI#1 & IUI 2 - BFN :-(
Forced break due to DH getting spinal surgery in August 2011
IVF - January 2012: BFN
FET in April 2012 - BFP at 6dp5dt! Beta #1 at 9dp5dt: 82.5, Beta #2 at 12dp5dt: 352 Beta #3 at 19dp5dt: 6000, saw heartbeat and one little bean at 5W6D!
After nearly 3 years of waiting our LO was born December 18th 2012!
Oh my gosh...I have done this too. It's always uncomfortable after you sober up and realized that they know.
TTC since March/April 2010
DX: MFI - less than 1 million sperm, 26% motility
DH put on anastrozole to increase counts
June/July 2011 100 mg Clomid + TS IUI#1 & IUI 2 - BFN :-(
Forced break due to DH getting spinal surgery in August 2011
IVF - January 2012: BFN
FET in April 2012 - BFP at 6dp5dt! Beta #1 at 9dp5dt: 82.5, Beta #2 at 12dp5dt: 352 Beta #3 at 19dp5dt: 6000, saw heartbeat and one little bean at 5W6D!
After nearly 3 years of waiting our LO was born December 18th 2012!
Hugs.
Been there, done that. It will be ok. I know it must feel weird, but you know what, it is actually good for people to see the raw pain..