Countless BFN(s)
Moving to IVF
IVF1 (ICSI): Long Lupron
6R. 3F. 3DT. 8Cell 1Grade 2Embies. 1Frostie.
Beta 1/22: 14 Beta 1/24: 24 Beta 1/26: 28
Round One Result: Chemical Pregnancy
Pressing Forward
IVF2 (ICSI/AH/ACU): Microdose Lupron Flare
13R. 11F. 5DT. 2TFR'ed. 1Frostie.
Round Two Result 4/30: Harsh BFN
FET. 2TFR'ed.
Round Three Result 6/25: BFN
Where do we go from here?
Moving forward with CCRM in 2013
ODWU revealed blocked tube(s). Lap 2/15.
Bilateral Tubal Ligation. Stage IV Endo.
Finally some (tough) answers.
IVF3 (ICSI/CCS): Antagonist with EPP
13R. We have 3 CCS Normal Embryos!
Lupron Depot: May 2013 to August 2013
Long awaited FET on 9/3. 2TFR'ed.
BFP on FRER 5dp5dt: IN SHOCK!
Beta1 9/10: 152.7! Beta2 9/12: 378! Beta3 9/14: 1224!
1st ultrasound 10/1: TWO beautiful heartbeats! Overjoyed!
Re: Happy Friday?
Mild MFI, irregular cycles, HSG only showed left tube open
IUIs #1-3: Femara -- BFN
IUI #4: Follistim + HCG boosters -- BFN
Sept./Oct. 2011 IVF#1: Long Lupron, 3dt of 2 -- BFN + 1 frostie
Surprise BFP 11.21.2011: missed m/c at 9w2d, D&C 12.27.2011
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feel better!!!! Stay strong.....
I am also having one of those days! I had a horrible RE check up today and have been crying at my desk all day!
AKA...suzannebetty- I changed my screen name!
Dx: Endo; Lap surgery:09/2009
Referred to RE October 2010
IVF #1 April/May 2011 - BFN; IVF #2 August 2011 - BFP, ended in miscarriage; FET #1 April 2012 - BFN; IVF #3 Fall 2012
I am so sorry. I know these days all too well and wouldn't wish them on anyone! Just keep your head up and know that your day will come soon. It will!
My whole point of taking a medicated break was to give my emotional state a chance to strengthen. I thought it was working, then today happened. Tears. Anger. Major heart break. What the heck! I cannot get away from the sadness of IF and that is beyond frustrating...to know that I will live in this state of emotional instabilty until I find success. Thank you for the well wishes. I am sure tomorow will be a better day, but for now I need to push down the sadness to regain composure while at work. After work, I will let the tears...and wine...flow!!
Countless BFN(s)
Moving to IVF
IVF1 (ICSI): Long Lupron
6R. 3F. 3DT. 8Cell 1Grade 2Embies. 1Frostie.
Beta 1/22: 14 Beta 1/24: 24 Beta 1/26: 28
Round One Result: Chemical Pregnancy
Pressing Forward
IVF2 (ICSI/AH/ACU): Microdose Lupron Flare
13R. 11F. 5DT. 2TFR'ed. 1Frostie.
Round Two Result 4/30: Harsh BFN
FET. 2TFR'ed.
Round Three Result 6/25: BFN
Where do we go from here?
Moving forward with CCRM in 2013
ODWU revealed blocked tube(s). Lap 2/15.
Bilateral Tubal Ligation. Stage IV Endo.
Finally some (tough) answers.
IVF3 (ICSI/CCS): Antagonist with EPP
13R. We have 3 CCS Normal Embryos!
Lupron Depot: May 2013 to August 2013
Long awaited FET on 9/3. 2TFR'ed.
BFP on FRER 5dp5dt: IN SHOCK!
Beta1 9/10: 152.7! Beta2 9/12: 378! Beta3 9/14: 1224!
1st ultrasound 10/1: TWO beautiful heartbeats! Overjoyed!
Awww, I'm so sorry hon *big hug*
I can't wait to get home to listen to my infertility guided meditation mp3. I've never been so relaxed in my life! I've never tried guided meditation before, but I'm loving it!
My interest is peaked! What is guided infertility meditation? Thank you for the support. Days like this stink. I need to think strong!
Countless BFN(s)
Moving to IVF
IVF1 (ICSI): Long Lupron
6R. 3F. 3DT. 8Cell 1Grade 2Embies. 1Frostie.
Beta 1/22: 14 Beta 1/24: 24 Beta 1/26: 28
Round One Result: Chemical Pregnancy
Pressing Forward
IVF2 (ICSI/AH/ACU): Microdose Lupron Flare
13R. 11F. 5DT. 2TFR'ed. 1Frostie.
Round Two Result 4/30: Harsh BFN
FET. 2TFR'ed.
Round Three Result 6/25: BFN
Where do we go from here?
Moving forward with CCRM in 2013
ODWU revealed blocked tube(s). Lap 2/15.
Bilateral Tubal Ligation. Stage IV Endo.
Finally some (tough) answers.
IVF3 (ICSI/CCS): Antagonist with EPP
13R. We have 3 CCS Normal Embryos!
Lupron Depot: May 2013 to August 2013
Long awaited FET on 9/3. 2TFR'ed.
BFP on FRER 5dp5dt: IN SHOCK!
Beta1 9/10: 152.7! Beta2 9/12: 378! Beta3 9/14: 1224!
1st ultrasound 10/1: TWO beautiful heartbeats! Overjoyed!
It's this mp3 I downloaded on Amazon mp3 and I'm in love with it! It's called "Trying to Conceive: Help for Infertility" by Val Gosselin. She has the most soothing voice.
There are silent meditations, a long guided meditation and a short guided meditation. You're supposed to listen to it every day for 21 days for maximum benefit, blah, blah, blah. I figured it was worth a try since I'm going bat sh!t crazy lately. I'm on my 17th day and I actually find myself looking forward to it every day!
I've been having a REALLY hard time relaxing lately, but this works every time!
Bat sh!t crazy! That pretty much sums up what IF turns us into! Lol! I am all over this download. Thanks for the idea!
Countless BFN(s)
Moving to IVF
IVF1 (ICSI): Long Lupron
6R. 3F. 3DT. 8Cell 1Grade 2Embies. 1Frostie.
Beta 1/22: 14 Beta 1/24: 24 Beta 1/26: 28
Round One Result: Chemical Pregnancy
Pressing Forward
IVF2 (ICSI/AH/ACU): Microdose Lupron Flare
13R. 11F. 5DT. 2TFR'ed. 1Frostie.
Round Two Result 4/30: Harsh BFN
FET. 2TFR'ed.
Round Three Result 6/25: BFN
Where do we go from here?
Moving forward with CCRM in 2013
ODWU revealed blocked tube(s). Lap 2/15.
Bilateral Tubal Ligation. Stage IV Endo.
Finally some (tough) answers.
IVF3 (ICSI/CCS): Antagonist with EPP
13R. We have 3 CCS Normal Embryos!
Lupron Depot: May 2013 to August 2013
Long awaited FET on 9/3. 2TFR'ed.
BFP on FRER 5dp5dt: IN SHOCK!
Beta1 9/10: 152.7! Beta2 9/12: 378! Beta3 9/14: 1224!
1st ultrasound 10/1: TWO beautiful heartbeats! Overjoyed!
Bat sh!t crazy - yep, that's how I feel too! I'm gonna check it out too. Thanks Daisies!
And to rockpaperlove, sorry you had one of "those" days. Hope you'll be home soon with a glass of wine in hand. Any fun plans to help you relax this weekend?
IVF #1 in progress
I am going to get bat sh!t crazy! Just kidding. I love that phrase and plan to use it often thanks to Daisies! I have a caramel apple making party with my girlfriends this weekend. Caramel apples is our excuse to get together and drink wine!
Countless BFN(s)
Moving to IVF
IVF1 (ICSI): Long Lupron
6R. 3F. 3DT. 8Cell 1Grade 2Embies. 1Frostie.
Beta 1/22: 14 Beta 1/24: 24 Beta 1/26: 28
Round One Result: Chemical Pregnancy
Pressing Forward
IVF2 (ICSI/AH/ACU): Microdose Lupron Flare
13R. 11F. 5DT. 2TFR'ed. 1Frostie.
Round Two Result 4/30: Harsh BFN
FET. 2TFR'ed.
Round Three Result 6/25: BFN
Where do we go from here?
Moving forward with CCRM in 2013
ODWU revealed blocked tube(s). Lap 2/15.
Bilateral Tubal Ligation. Stage IV Endo.
Finally some (tough) answers.
IVF3 (ICSI/CCS): Antagonist with EPP
13R. We have 3 CCS Normal Embryos!
Lupron Depot: May 2013 to August 2013
Long awaited FET on 9/3. 2TFR'ed.
BFP on FRER 5dp5dt: IN SHOCK!
Beta1 9/10: 152.7! Beta2 9/12: 378! Beta3 9/14: 1224!
1st ultrasound 10/1: TWO beautiful heartbeats! Overjoyed!
Baby boy Henry born 2015.
Expecting our capstone baby (boy) early March 2018.
Any excuse works for me, but that sounds like fun! Hope you have a great time.
IVF #1 in progress
I'm glad I could make you smile! And your caramel apple party sounds like so much fun!