I have been seeking some sort of comfort from this site for a little while and thought it was time to introduce myself. Just to warn people I did have a full term baby, not a m/c or a stillborn. I don't want to upset anyone by my story and maybe I don't belong here since most of you lost your babies much sooner than I did. I know how lucky I am to have had her living and breathing for 5 days, but I still lost her. She would be 2 months old today.
Our little Eleanora was born perfectly healthy on June 17, 2011.. We brought her home on Father?s day. She filled our lives and home with so much joy and happiness. She had jaundice and was under the phototherapy at the hospital on her last day there, but we were cleared and able to go home with no further treatment. We woke up Wednesday just like any other day in our new lives. I was feeding my precious baby when I noticed she was really yellow. I brought her into to my husband, Nick, to see if it was just me. So we called the pediatrician right away and they brought us in. When we were putting her in her car seat I noticed she was a little limp, but she was still breathing and her heart was still beating. We waited in the waiting room for what felt like forever. The doctor rushed in and then my life crashed. He said she was no longer breathing and started doing CPR. They called 911 and eventually we were taken by ambulance to the hospital. I knew it wasn?t good when the driver didn?t turn the siren on, but I was trying to stay hopeful that the ER doctors could do something. In the ER they worked on her for more than 45 minutes with no change. She never breathed on her own. It was, as you can imagine from your own experience, surreal. I felt like I was watching a movie or an episode of Grey?s Anatomy. They put me in her stretcher and handed her over to me. She was still warm and still so perfectly beautiful. It still doesn?t feel real.
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I am so sorry for your loss. I saw your post in the OP below and hoped you would start your own post. Will they be running tests so you can have some answers? You can see from my ticker that we lost my DD at 14 days old and had no idea when I was pregnant that she was sick and didn't find out until her 1 week check up, so I can completely understand the shock and grief that you are probably experiencing. Please feel free to PM me if you want to talk The ladies on this board are awesome and I hope you can get some comfort and support from their kind words.
DD #1 passed away in January 2011 at 14 days old due to congenital heart disease
DD#2 lost in January 2012 at 23 weeks due to anhydramnios caused by a placental abruption
They did an autopsy and called me the day of the service to ask a bunch of questions. It was horrible. My OB got an initial report that she had to fight for and the baby's right nostril was completely blocked. It doesn't seem like the cause of death though. My MIL talked to a neonatal doctor and she mentioned a bile duct blockage, but I am not sure who to take that information to. We have not gotten the full report back yet. It should be here soon though. She was perfectly healthy as far as we know. Thank you for your reply and kind words.
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I am so sorry for the loss of Eleanora. I hope that this board helps you as it has so many. I also pray that you get some answers soon on what caused this to happen. Lots of hugs!!
Married by best friend on May 15, 2010
First BFP (Honeymoon Baby) on June 8, 2010
Mackenzie Anne born sleeping on November 26, 2010 at 30 weeks
Mackenzie had Congestive Heart Failure and Hydrops Fetalis;
CP in April 2011
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I wish I had the words to bring you comfort in this terrible time of loss. I hope you find some peace here with others that have suffered losses too. I know that I have.
My goodness I am so so sorry for your loss. Loss doesnt even begin to describe what you have been through. I will pray for you and your family for strength each day . I have no advice because I didnt expirence my son being alive...I cant begin to even wrap my mind around that. Please take care of yourself. And I always have an open ear if I can help in any way. My heart breaks for you.
Preston Cash my angel born sleeping @34 weeks 5-16-09
BFP 9-16-11
Married to DH since 11-2-08
DD (9) DS (8)
Jude Levi, My rainbow baby, born May 8th 2012. We are so in love!
Wow, I could not imagine being in your shoes, but you are by far welcomed here. So sorry about the loss of your little girl. There is some great support on these boards and many ladies with babies that lived days and weeks, so you are definitely not alone here.
Your story is absolutely heartbreaking. I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby girl ((hugs)). Welcome and I hope you find the support and comfort you are looking for.
My heart is breaking for you. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you are able to find some comfort and support here. These ladies have been amazing to me during the last few months. I can't imagine going through this without them.
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I'm so sorry for your loss. I cant even imagine what youre going through right now. My heart breaks for you and you'll be in my prayers. ((((((HUGS)))))) to you.
How terrible, I'm so sorry you had to loose your little girl. This board is incredible, offering advice, support, laughter and sisterhood. I hope you find some comfort from us. Our "shoulders" are here for you.
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Re: Introduction (long)
DD #1 passed away in January 2011 at 14 days old due to congenital heart disease
DD#2 lost in January 2012 at 23 weeks due to anhydramnios caused by a placental abruption
Stepmom to: Lizzie (4); Justin (10); and Cameron (13)
Mom to 3 angels: Baby 1 MC 2/13/09 @ 7 wks; Baby 2 CP 11/5/10 @ 5 wks;
and Brendan - Late Loss 4/27/11 @ 20 wks
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My goodness I am so so sorry for your loss. Loss doesnt even begin to describe what you have been through. I will pray for you and your family for strength each day . I have no advice because I didnt expirence my son being alive...I cant begin to even wrap my mind around that. Please take care of yourself. And I always have an open ear if I can help in any way. My heart breaks for you.
BFP 9-16-11
Married to DH since 11-2-08
DD (9) DS (8)
Jude Levi, My rainbow baby, born May 8th 2012. We are so in love!
Dx with Antiphospholipid Antibody Syndrome (APS)
BFP #4 5/14/12
5/17/12...1st Betas- 176, P4 3.6
5/22/12...2nd Betas- 207, P4 6.1 (MC confirmed)
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So sorry for the loss of Eleanora...my heart breaks for you and DH. I will keep you both in my thoughts and prayers.
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I'm so sorry for your loss. I cant even imagine what youre going through right now. My heart breaks for you and you'll be in my prayers. ((((((HUGS)))))) to you.
Jenn
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Missing our twins Zachary and Madison, lost at 19 weeks on 11/13/09, edd 4/9/10
BFP 7/17/10, m/c 7/25/10, edd 3/25/11
Ectopic, lost left tube 4/20/11, edd 12/6/11
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Henry Cavill...You're welcome!
BFP #3: EDD 1/10/13 **DS born 12/30/12!!!**
BFP #2: MC 7/2/11 @ 12 weeks
**Missing our February '12 LoveBug**
BFP #1: MMC discovered on 12/6/10