One Month
Well it was a month yesterday. One month since I was told my baby had died. Yesterday was a beautiful day..and thoughts popped up through the day of my little one. My DH wanted to go to the jewelry store to get the beads for my Pandora bracelet. I am getting a charm with an N on it for Nathan and a birthstone bead. The baby was due in January, but I cant decide to get a January or a June..for the loss. We didn't end up going bc I could not say for sure that I could go without having a breakdown in the store. I have been feeling a lot better and making small accomplishments, working my way back to "normal" It has been a long hard road..with a few setbacks here and there..I did make it through this milestone..and I sure will make it through those to come. I am trying to keep a more positive attitude and embrace those around me that are having babies. It is just so tough... So, as I look forward to the next month without Nathan Jeremy..I will remember and treasure him always..and just WISH that I could have met him before he left. Sorry for the rambles girls..my thoughts are NOT organized. ((Big HUGS)) to everyone from me (Jaki)
Re: One Month
Those milestones are so tough - good for you for acknowledging how far you've come already.
You and I had our miscarriages at the same time. Today is one month since I found out the news and had my D&C.
I hope you find the perfect piece of jewelry to honor Nathan Jeremy. I think no matter what you decide to get, it will be just the right thing. I understand not being ready to go in the store yet. I think I would feel the same way.
Hugs to you at this difficult time. Thank you for sharing your positivity with us. It has been helpful to me today.
BFP#1 April 12, 2011, EDD December 24, 2011, strong heart beat at 7w3d, d&c at 10w6d
BFP#2 Oct 24, 2011, natural miscarriage, EDD unknown
After RPL testing my losses and subsequent infertility are considered unexplained.
Cycle #22: Femara, TI, and progesterone = BFP!!
BFP#3 Dec 21, 2012. Beta #1 @14dpo = 134, progesterone 67.8. Beta #2 @ 17dpo = 664! Team green, EDD 9/1/13, healthy baby boy born 9/12/13!
Congratulations to the fabulous KGS2003! Her sweet boys are here! Grow boys grow!!!
I'm thinking of our little one tonight too. It will be a month on Wednesday since we lost ours. I dread the milestone and hope and pray that there will be more and more "normal" days for you. Hang in there.