I'm back - with an update - I missed you all!
MelleTX
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Hello ladies - I'm back!
First, I am sorry for the disappearing act. I just needed a break and with everything that has gone on the last month and a half, I just had to unplug from the Bump for a little while. I hope you understand. I did lurk periodically to check in on you. But, I am back now!
Ok, so let's see where we left off... Work had been a beast this year and I am convinced the added stress was contributing to my IUI failures. Then in mid-April, I was laid off. Sounds horrible, but it was really a blessing in disguise. It was a Monday and IUI #5 was scheduled for Wednesday! I had a Junior League meeting that night that I seriously wanted to skip-out on since I didn't know what the lack of employment would do to the baby-making plans. I am single, remember, so no husband with a second income in this household. It's all me. Anyway, I decided to go to the meeting anyway since I sit on the steering committee for our largest fundraiser. I got there early and was talking to my friend Jamie and telliing her about work. Right then and there, she offered me a job consultiing for her communications company.
It's awesome and the prefect job for me. I'm a contract employee so no benefits, but I can handle that on my own since my hourly rate is so much higher than my previous salary. I work flexible hours, from home - about 25-30 hours a week. And still make more money than my advertising job. I am loving it! I feel like I spent the last 12 years of my career being overly ambitious at the expense of having a family. Always working hard, trying to prove myself, trying to get the next promotion. I am done with all that. I am just happy being good at what I do. I have never been happier.
Unfortunately, IUI #5 was still a failure. I was really bummed as it seemed to be the perfect scenario, but it was not to be. That's when I disappeared. I just needed a break. I even disappeared from my RE too. Well, it's been a month and I went into see the RE today for a WTF consult. I am much more discouraged than he seems to be. There is technically nothing wrong with me, I just seem to get the crap end of the odds. We decided that I would take this month off as well and then try one more medicated IUI in July. (I have one vial left). If that does not work, I will select a new donor and proceed with IVF in the Fall. I hate the thought of the $$$, but I like having a plan.
I think I might actually be able to afford IVF, but only because I got a sweet severance from my old job and started working the new job a few weeks later. It's funny how everythign works out.
So, here I am on CD2, waiting for this period to end and the next one to begin so I can give IUI with donor 12028 one more chance.
I'm starting to read through all the posts again, but I can't wait for all your updates.
I missed you!
Glad to be back,
Melle
Re: I'm back - with an update - I missed you all!
IVF #1 ET 1 d3 embryo 10/30/11 BFP
3 Embryos frozen (1 d5, 2 d6)
DS born 07/29/12
FET #1 ET 1 d5 embryo 02/10/15 BFN
FET #2 1 d6 embryo didn't survive thaw, transferred last d6. CP
great story about the job! the tone of your update sounds really optimistic.
keep the baby faith ... i feel like a broken record these days, but have you tried acupuncture?
Me: 36, DH: 42
Dx: DOR and MFI
DH: low count + very low motility; hormones all normal; Sperm DNA Frag. test = poor to fair; male karyotyping normal
Me: FSH 13.4 + AMH 0.26 + hypothyroidism; Scratch the hypothyrodism (?); Blood clotting and immune panel all negative; endometrial biopsy normal
IVF #1 (MDLF - Jul/Aug 2011): BFN (9R, 5M, 3F with ICSI, 3dt of 1 10-cell grade 2, no frosties)
IVF #2 (EP-antagonist - Sep/Oct 2011): BFN (6R, 4M, 3F w/ ICSI, 3dt of 1 6-cell, 1 7-cell, grade 4s, no frosties)
DE IVF #1 (shared cycle - June 2012): c/p (6R, 6F w/ICSI, 3dt 1 8-cell grade A- and 1 7-cell grade A-; no frosties)
DE IVF #2 (shared cycle with new donor - Nov/Dec/ 2012): - BFP!!!!! 12/14/12. U/S on 12/27 shows twins!!!!!
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Hey Melle,
Glad you are back! I totally get the need for a break at times. I'm so happy to hear about your new job. It sounds wonderful! I'm sorry #5 didn't work. There really is no rhyme or reason on these things. I hope you don't have to move on to IVF but it is there if "we" need it. Welcome back!!
TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
DE IVF #3 1/14 ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d
DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!
K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days
SAIF/PAIF Welcome
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