TTTC with PCOS and Babies are EVERYWHERE!
So today (after calling 3 times for my blood work results) I found out that I am NOT pregnant AGAIN. *snif*
BUT it gets WORSE?.
So not only do I find out I am STILL not pregnant but ANOTHER one of my colleagues is pregnant! 9 weeks along?
Needless to say I bawled my eyes out today?
It isn?t that I?m not happy for her of course, it?s just I
can?t make sense as to why it?s STILL not happening for ME! I put on a
brave and happy face at work but I really felt like I was stabbed in the
gut. She WAS very considerate of me. She took me aside and let me know
in private (which I really appreciated) and I gave her a big sincere hug
and a kiss. I am a REALLY good actress when it comes to hiding how I
feel however. I have ALWAYS had to put on a happy face growing up but
THIS is just eating me up inside. The LAST thing I want is for HER to
feel badly! I just want it to happen so I can stop worrying about
whether or not it will EVER happen?it HAS been 9 months!
Also my husband had to go right to work after I got home so I couldn?t even talk to him much. So I decided (puffy eyes and red nose and all) to do some ?retail therapy? and I went to a new store and bought myself a present. It was only a fancy soap and some walking tour travel cards for Paris but I asked that they gift wrap it and it made me feel a little better at least. Since I knew I was going to go home and wallow in my misery I figured I might as well get some new soap and smell better even if I feel like ***!
Otherwise
?.I called the Gyno AGAIN and asked when I should schedule my HSG (fallopian
tube test) and they said AFTER my next period. So it is a waiting game
AGAIN! My last period was February 4th so if all is going as it should I
SHOULD have a period soon.
The hubs ?deposits? his ?specimen? for analysis tomorrow so we?ll see what becomes of THAT.
WOW this day SUCKED ROYALLY!!! My patience and optimism is TRULY being tested today!
Re: TTTC with PCOS and Babies are EVERYWHERE!
Can relate...two of my good friends are expecting and we have been trying since April 10 and I have endometriosis stage IV. A friend of mine who had some trouble concieving sent me this card today...."I believe in miracles. I think something beyond our understanding can come to us when we need it the most. And I really, really hope that you get your miracle soon."
Hope this helps.
It does and I am so thankful that you shared this with me!
After the day I had I need all the encouragement I can get!
aww I'm so sorry..I know how you feel! We had our last period on the same day! But-I was just diagnosed with PCOS this morning..
Since last Friday I have been waiting for the results. And yes, it seems like pregnancies are popping up left and right...except mine! Its tough and I know we have a journey ahead of us but its what we have to do to get what we want. And I want a baby..
Hope you feel better soon hun!! ((hugs)) and here's to getting AF this week!!!