I wish I was not this negative all the time. I keep thinking about all the worse things that could happen to me. PgAL is too difficult. Today I weighed myself and I lost weight. I was 125 last week and 121 today. I thought that was wierd. I know I am only 5wks, but I didn't think I would be loosing weight. I am overanalyzing everything. One days my boobs feel big and next they don't. I think DH is probably getting annoyed by me. He keeps telling me that I should try to be positive.
just needed to vent.
Re: Cannot stop my negative thinking
I know how you feel. It's so hard to be positive sometimes. (((hugs)))
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*hugs* Pgal is often anxiety filled.
As for the weight, its not uncommon to lose in the first tri.
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FWIW, I'm 5wks too and my symptoms are still pretty minimal and very inconsistant. My weights gone down a little too, like an ounce, but still down.
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It's the sad truth of being PgAL...
Same here.
I'm so scared that I'm doing things wrong and I'm super careful about every thing I do. I even try to creep cuz I'm afraid I'm going to take too hard of a step and lose it. It's so hard to keep positive like Cody tells me to. He didn't see me when I lost our first one (He had to go take care of his family for a few months) so he doesn't understand how devastated I was losing our other baby.
Even though everything is better than last time, I'm still terrified of doing anything that would cause our baby harm. I hope you can think positively soon. I know I'm working on it.