anyone else bitter?
mamabear42886
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I just finished my last round of 150mg clomid last night...I do not ovulate on 50 or 100. I have lost enough weight for AF to return on its own, which is a big step.
Like many of you, I really want to start my family...and as the first born I was looking foward to the day I make my parents first time grandparents...I mean, on downtime at work I would think of ways to tell my parents that they are going to be grandparents (even though I am not preggers yet). I have two younger brothers who I thought wouldn't accidentally beat me to the punch line....well I was really freakin wrong about that. My youngest brother (17) knocked up his new gf after she told him that she ran out of pills but it would still work up to a week.
Now, I am very bitter. VERY very bitter. Now I just need to know I am not the only one out there that is going through this.
P.S. I hope clomid works this time.
Re: anyone else bitter?
TTC since 2010
lots of IUIs and 1 IVF all BFNs
FET currently on hold
I'm trying not to be, but it is hard. My husband and I are photographers and Sunday we have to take maternity photos of his 19 yr old, unwed neice
P.S. Hope the clomid works for you this time. {{{hugs}}}
Diagnosed PCOS 2/07, TTC #1 since 8/09
11/10 - Clomid Round 1 = BFN
12/10 - Clomid Round 2 = BFN
1/11 - Voluntary Break = BFN (duh)
2/11 - Clomid Round 3 = BFN
3/11 - Femara + IUI = BFP * Beta#1=56 * Beta#2=266
*Cautiously expecting baby girls on November 28, 2011*
Thank you for the support so far.
I know it's hard not to be bitter...I'm honestly just glad that I am not the only one. TTC is a long tough and sometimes messed up road. What sucks even more is that I was starting to get over other ppl getting pregnant before me (and without clomid) and then...what I found out yesterday totally screwed up that progress.
For those of you TTC, lots of baby dust to you. For those with lil' ones, you are so lucky
Fertility is wasted on the stupid.
It is difficult not to be bitter about something like this. But remember, her getting pregnant is not going to effect your chance of getting pregnant (though I can understand you wanted to give your parents their first grandchild).
Good luck to you!
I have 2 sisters and I am in the middle my older sister has to beautiful girls. Luckily my little sister isn't planning on having babies any time soo but on DH's side he is the only one who hasn't had kids yet. His sisters and all his cousins have babies and I feel bad form him cause ppl keep asking. It does really suck. You are not alone.
Yay for other MN ladies on this board! (but boo for today's snow and the drive home in a bit).
I think it's natural to feel jealous of other people who are pregnant/have children. Especially when it was an oops or if the pregnancy happened within a couple months of trying. I think you'll find that everyone on this board has felt that way at some point or another. Best of luck to you.
You are definitely not alone. It stings every time I hear someone announce their pregnancy. It stings even worse when it's somone who didn't plan it and is not emotionally ready for it.
I find the boards help alot. It definitely helps to talk to ladies going through the same things. I feel less "broken" somehow.
And I whole heartedly agree with Allie, it's good to remember that other women's BFP's do not have any bearing on whether or not we'll get one. Difficult, but good to remember none the less.
Good luck on this clomid cycle. Hopefully the increase in dosage does the trick!
THIS! Allie - well said.
I try like h_ll not to be "bitter"... Instead I get motivated... I keep reminding myself, in the midst of tears... "When I do get pregnant, I'm seriously going to try my hardest to be the best mother ever." I just try to get myself all psyched up... :-)
Best of luck to you.
Boo is right. Not excited at all about driving home
TTC since 2010
lots of IUIs and 1 IVF all BFNs
FET currently on hold
I am beyond bitter. I just found out that I don't ovulate and will be starting clomid soon (or atleast thats Dr's recommendation). Since finding out, two of my friends fell pregnant (one of whom had an abortion just last year). I also work in Human Resources and we have more women out on maternity this year than any other. Why is it so easy for them and not us, I will never know. I fully agree with the person that said fertility is wasted on the stupid. I wish you lots of luck, try to stay positive, or just take some time out away from pregnant people!
I'm sorry you're feeling down. Good luck on your next cycle!
I get the bitterness, and I'm with you. Tonight, I happen to be just downright sad. And I know I need to get over it, but it's so hard.
I'm so sorry for you - and for all of us - who want to be parents so badly. I will probably never understand why we are put through this, but I just know that when the babies do come, we will be the most loving, wonderful parents ever!!! We must keep focused on that.
Definitely allow yourself time to be angry, sad, whatever...because I've found the longer you hold those emotions in, the worse the "release" can be.
I hate to say "hang in there" because I know that times, you feel as though you are hanging on by the tips of your fingernails, but just know that you are not alone, you have a wonderful support group here - and I hope in your life as well - and that you can come here to vent or talk any time. So many others are going through what you are and have no doubt had the same thoughts and feelings as you. I know it has helped me tremendously.
Good luck. And thanks to each of you who have helped me through my worst moments.