Subject (for mobile): 34 weeks and still emotionally uncomfortable
I haven't been posting at all recently... sorry for that. I'm finding it still so hard to talk about my pregnancy. This manifests mostly in face to face conversations but here too to some extent. The farther along I get, the more questions turn to how I'm feeling, my delivery plans, and my after baby plans. It's weird because I'm totally focused on my baby, my pregnancy, and all the things that people want to talk about... but I just don't want to talk about it with them. All the questions make me so uncomfortable.
Maybe its part of PGAL/IF brain, maybe its part of being a FTM (not really, but its just easier to say that since I've never done most of the things people want to ask me about) or maybe its just normal stuff that anyone about to have a baby might be feeling at this stage. Maybe its because people talk to me like this baby is imminent, but I'm not actually due for another 6 weeks.
I don't know, I just wish I could answer their questions politely and quickly without feeling like I'm leaving them hanging... or like my answers aren't right. Its too much attention on such a sensitive subject. Blah.