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Talk me off the "jinxing" ledge...

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I'm 10w4d today. The last time we saw Button was 8w5d, and all was well. Nothing has really changed since then physically, and I'm honestly not terribly anxious or crippled by PgAL brain. If anything, actually, two of my BFFs unwittingly offer huge reassurance last night. They came over for dinner since they hadn't seen me in 2 weeks (since we left for England) and independently both commented on what are my apparently "amazing" and "massive" new boobs. Embarrassed 

But I've never been this far in pregnancy before--at the point where it starts feeling like it might be real. And suddenly, yesterday, I found myself needing the Bella Band (that I bought before our first loss but never wore) to wear shorts to church yesterday. And this morning, even though our first OB appointment isn't until Friday, I had to call and schedule my NT scan (done at an outside office) for next Tuesday (because we've got a really narrow window when we can get it done, due to going away again). And I even did some browsing online at Old Navy maternity yesterday.

I guess I'm just plain scared. Scared I'm getting ahead of myself--though we've bought nothing pregnancy-related in the last 10 weeks. Scared I'll somehow jinx things going well by looking forward to the fact that they might. Scared that my tempered excitement could somehow turn this joy into another pain.

So, can you talk me off the ledge? Or else just drown me in amusing GIFs? Distractions are always good--it's why I'm currently snuggled on the sofa in the midst of a Dance Moms marathon. Smile 


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BFP #1 (natural): 12/15/11; missed m/c and D&C at 7-8w
BFP #2 (Menopur + Ovidrel + IUI#2): 11/20/12; hb@6w2d, no hb@7w6d; D&C
BFP #3 (Menopur + Ovidrel + IUI#3): 6/7/13; Baby Button born via c/s 2/8/14
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  • Oh, Rosie!! Sending you huge (((hugs))).  I can't do any funny gifs right now but just wanted to let you know I heart you.  There is no jinxing a pregnancy but your fear is understandable.  Take deep breaths and enjoy your Dance Moms marathon.  I hope you start feeling better and hopefully next weeks appointment will ease some fears for you.  ((hugs))
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  • Lurking and sending you hugs. I've been thinking about you. Nothing else to offer but praying for a sound mind and some peace.

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  • Ugh, I know how this feels. I've honestly dealt with it by just buying things as I need them. I went out and hit the ON sale last week because I absolutely had to have pants that fit, instead of just buying things that I'll need later, if that makes sense.

    We ended up buying a second crib WAY earlier than expected (they're discontinuing ours and we want two the same, so we picked it up before it's gone), and we both felt really anxious about having it in the house. We tucked it away so we can forget about it until we're a little further along.

    But everything else is 'immediate need only'. I think it's a smart way to go about it.

    (((hugs))) 

  • *Big Hugs*

    You are in good company, I feel like I could write this post myself! 

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  • Big (((hugs))), Rosie!  I don't have a lot of advice, because I'm at the same point as you.  In fact, I could have wrote this post myself!  I shopped online for maternity clothes at Old Navy yesterday too, and the tab is still open but I can't bring myself to actually order what's in my cart.  (And, I can't stop watching Dance Moms either!!!)

    I keep trying to tell myself that worrying doesn't change anything, so I need to just be in the moment and let myself enjoy what is happening now.  And as far as I know, I am pregnant now (and, in need of bigger pants)!  Not sure if that helps at all, but it is what I'm trying anyway!

    Hang in there!

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  • Buying or not buying something won't change the outcome. Magical thinking doesn't work. Any pain or grief you'd feel if something happened will be there whether you're excited or not. Frankly, after being through 4 losses, being happy and feeling positive feels better to me than anything else so I strive for that, but I know it's hard. Allow yourself to be happy and believe, if you can.

    I'm just a few days behind you and having similar feelings. It's hard for me after so many early pregnancies to believe that this baby will result in a physical appearance change and I too browsed some maternity wear yesterday.

    I allow myself a "treat" or allowance for weekly milestones, whether it's a "fit pregnancy" magazine from the bookstore or  something super small like that. Nothing really for baby, just stuff to help me through. It makes the milestones better and I think helps me mentally prepare. My "treat" this week was "looking at maternity clothes." I've never gotten to that point before, where wearing them was even a possibility and just having reached the point of looking felt like an accomplishment.

    I hope it gets better. It's hard. I can't promise it will be ok but I can promise that you can't jinx it. 

     

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  • I feel ya. I bought an Ergo carrier two weeks ago [even though I've had an SCH, and PgAL brain is in full swing], and now I'm hoping I didn't jinx myself. It's so hard...

    But I'm another that just keeps telling myself that worrying won't help, or change anything. I saw a therapist after my last loss, and he kept telling me that I deserve to be happy, that I need to be happy, and that I just need to be natural and relax. I'm trying to live by those rules - you deserve to enjoy this and be happy, and I hope you can soon. *hugs*

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  • I think a ton of us have been there, so don't worry about feeling silly and whatnot

    I didn't get excited about this pregnancy until probably after our NT scan went well. you and I have similar loss timelines, so I feel like I was you a few months ago. some people tried to pep me up and tell me not to worry, etc. that annoyed the crap out of me, so I won't tell you that. 

    so.... just enjoy your dance moms marathon, remember that there's no such thing as jinxing, and enjoy this funny picture of my dog looking like a giraffe

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  • Huge hugs, Rosie. I have these fearful moments, too. I have to keep convincing myself that this is a different pregnancy and I try to remember to enjoy it as it's own entity even if only for a few moments each day. I hate that we have these worries on our minds, but I think it's completely natural. Big, snuggly hugs.
  • Oh honey,  I'm standing right on that ledge with you.  I'm getting excited about this pregnancy, but scared that I am getting excited and making plans.  MH and I have planned on buying a new car for when we have this baby because I have a 2 door.  He's not a huge fan of my car and wants to go ahead and start the process, but I keep telling him I'm not ready.  PgAL brain is rough! 

    Since I have nothing to offer you other than letting you know you are not alone in this and some ((hugs)), I'll contribute some gifs!

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    Ugh, I know how this feels. I've honestly dealt with it by just buying things as I need them. I went out and hit the ON sale last week because I absolutely had to have pants that fit, instead of just buying things that I'll need later, if that makes sense.

    We ended up buying a second crib WAY earlier than expected (they're discontinuing ours and we want two the same, so we picked it up before it's gone), and we both felt really anxious about having it in the house. We tucked it away so we can forget about it until we're a little further along.

    But everything else is 'immediate need only'. I think it's a smart way to go about it.

    (((hugs))) 

    This is pretty much how we handled things too.  Just try to take it one day at a time. 

    After I got the results of the MaterniT21 test I started to feel a little better.  Up until that point, I bought only what was essential for the moment, maternity wise. It wasn't until after our A/S that I really started buying anything baby-wise, but it was still limited.  After I reached V-day, I bought a few more things.  Now I've got a list of big items that we are checking off a few items every couple of weeks.  What I do have is still in boxes or has the tags still attached. 


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  • HUGS!

    You cannot jinx this pregnancy by doing and buying the things you need for it. Is it scary and hard to get that through your head sometimes? Yes, but it's also very true. Try to take comfort in the fact that you are further along and still having symptoms. Poke yourself in those fabulous new boobs for a reminder every now and again if you need to. 



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  • All of these replies are exactly what I needed to hear, ladies--thank you so much! I love the idea of buying little things for myself--not even necessarily for pregnancy--as I pass milestones (though I did promise myself I could order a snoogle after the NT scan!). It's just so helpful to hear from all of you that I'm not going through this alone, and that many of you who are further along than me have been through this phase and out the other side.

    Much love to all! 


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    BFP #2 (Menopur + Ovidrel + IUI#2): 11/20/12; hb@6w2d, no hb@7w6d; D&C
    BFP #3 (Menopur + Ovidrel + IUI#3): 6/7/13; Baby Button born via c/s 2/8/14
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    I totally understand your fear.  On the flip side.....A (mommy) friend of mine told me early on in this pregnancy that I SHOULD go buy something in faith.  So I did.  I started off with a baby book to read to our LO.  I bought it soon after I found out I was pregnant.  I have even read it several times.  It lists many different animals and the kinds of hugs they give.  It's great and I enjoy the hugs myself!  Then, after a few weeks, I felt confident and bought a few maternity things for me.  I've decided that I cannot do anything to "jinx" this baby.  I've decided to fear nothing and pray about everything.  And to have faith in this miracle inside of me.  It's helped with Pgal brain tremendously.  I just keep looking forward.  God is in control.

    It's okay for you to be joyful!  If it's time for matenity clothes, own it and go get you some.  Your baby is growing!  It's a super exciting time right now.  I pray that you have strength, peace and comfort.  {{{hugs}}}

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  • I think you have to take a big step back from the ledge and just enjoy this pregnancy every day.  I know it's hard but I honestly believe this is it for you guys and that things are going to be ok.  I know it's scary and easy to stay reserved so you don't get hurt again but that little button is wiggling around there and can't wait to meet you guys so just stay as positive as you can and know we are always here for you! (((hugs)))

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    HUGS!

    You cannot jinx this pregnancy by doing and buying the things you need for it. Is it scary and hard to get that through your head sometimes? Yes, but it's also very true. Try to take comfort in the fact that you are further along and still having symptoms. Poke yourself in those fabulous new boobs for a reminder every now and again if you need to. 

    Oh, my boobs are definitely getting more action now from me poking and prodding them hourly than they ever did pre-pregnancy! Stick out tongue


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    image RosiePeare:

    All of these replies are exactly what I needed to hear, ladies--thank you so much! I love the idea of buying little things for myself--not even necessarily for pregnancy--as I pass milestones (though I did promise myself I could order a snoogle after the NT scan!). It's just so helpful to hear from all of you that I'm not going through this alone, and that many of you who are further along than me have been through this phase and out the other side.

    Much love to all! 

    I just bought one at Burlington Coat Factory for $39.99!!!  It didn't come with a cover but I'm gonnna make one out of an old jersey sheet.  So, I haven't used it yet but I can't wait.  Hopefully by the end of the week.

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  • I know how you feel - I'm the same way.

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    Considering I have no experience in being pgal, I have no advice. So I came with amusing gifs!

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  • T listen to me. You know, just as well as anyone, that you cannot jinx anything. There is no such thing. NO such thing. I know that when you are in this situation though, that all logic and rationale flies out the window because of the fear that being PGAL has instilled in all of us. I was the same exact way for a very long time during this pregnancy.

    But you've got this. You know that God is in control of this one just like He is everything else and only He knows how this is going to play out. You have to try to have faith that everything is going to be aokay and that this little button is going to be sticking around until he/she is done cooking, when they are resting safely in your arms.

    I feel ya, though. I am in no way trying to minimize what you're feeling, i just want you to know that you are absolutely above this. I was there only a few months ago. I did find that for me celebrating this baby and pregnancy helped me feel like I was doing something making me feel more in control, per se. The fact of the matter is, I knew my heart would be broken if something happened to this baby, whether I bought some maternity clothes, dreamt about his nursery or just felt downright happy about everything or not. I won't say it gets easier, because the worries just change as the dynamics of being pregnant do, but you start to believe more and more with each passing day and milestone that what is in store is far too precious and miraculous to be jinxed.

    Lots of hugs!!!!!
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  • Big hugs Rosie! I think your experience is a common one. I know personally at some point early on I just decided to embrace the pregnancy and started buying little things. Although  it was scary to buy a clearance bathing suit in January that I wouldn't need for 5 months, I have to admit I enjoyed looking at my summer suit as my belly got bigger and bigger. 

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  • First, huge ((hugs)). Second, Nothing you do can jinx this pregnancy! I know you know that, but sometimes it is hard to believe it. You are surely not alone in those feelings. We've all been there. It honestly does get easier as you go along. Third, congrats on the nice boobies. It's one of my fave parts of pregnancyWink
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    BFP#5~9/07~edd6/15/08~m/c @ 6weeks
    BFP#6~1/12~edd 9/16/12~m/c 2/22/12 @ 10weeks3days
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  • Don't be afraid of a good thing, rejoice in the strength and health of this baby.

    Also, congrats on the awesome boobs!

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  • There's not much for me to add to what everyone else has said, but I wanted to send ((hugs)).
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  • Huge squishy [[[hugs]]], Rosie. Being scared to let yourself enjoy this and be happy totally sucks. You aren't alone and this pregnancy is not like the last one. I would throw awesome gifs your way but I'm mobile so I'll send some more [[[hugs]]] instead! FX for a great update on Friday!!

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  • [[HUGS]] it's hard but you're doing great Hun :]
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    BFP#2 4/4/2013 - Born at 37w3d on 11/26/13 via emergency c-section
    Loving our beautiful rainbow baby boy Archer!
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  • I know how you feel. Every single thing I'd buy, everyone I'd share the news with, felt like one step closer to 'jinxing' myself and my LO. Nothing you do can jinx you. Be happy :)
    BFP#1: 7/19/12 EDD: 03/15/2012 M/C: 7/28/12 - I love you always, Lily!
    BFP #2: 10/28/12 EDD: 07/09/13 

    My beautiful little rainbow baby girl born July 16th, 2013.
  • I think ppl above gave some great advice so I'll just give (((hugs))) 


    TTC since August 2011
    BFP#1 3/16/12 EDD 11/21/12 Delivered 6/1/12 at 15 weeks 2 days
    "If there ever comes a day when we can't be together... Keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever." ~ Winnie the Pooh

    BFP#2 4/14/13 EDD 12/24/13 Please be our rainbow after the storm!
    Beta#1 @ 15dpo 274, P4 16.9 Beta#2 @ 18dpo 940!! Doubling time of 40 hours!! u/s @ 6w2d showed a beautiful HB of 120! u/s @ 10w1d HB 174!! Grow, LO Grow!! Found out 7/22 we are TEAM BLUE!!
    Zaiden Harper was born 12/22/13 at 1:46 am. 9lbs 8oz and 22in
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  • I don't have much to offer, but I totally and completely understand. In fact, I just posted about making it to six weeks with no bleeding, and I immediately freaked out that I jinxed myself and am going to start bleeding like crazy.

    Hugs.  Hang in there!

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    ((BIG HUGS)) Your feelings are totally understandable!  Hopefully your next appointment will get here quickly and all goes well.
    BFP #1 (DS, 10/98), BFP #2 (DD, 10/09)
    BFP #3 -mm/c @ 7wks, discovered at 9wks, D&C 9/28
    BFP #4 5/29 EDD 2/9 - please be our rainbow
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