I've been fortunate enough to have a mom and MIL who have watched him all the way up till he's almost six months but I can't expect them to keep doing it. MIL works at a school for MRDD kids and she goes back at the end of August. She's hoping to retire in December but that's up in the air. My mom says it's too much to watch him five days a week which I completely understand. My grandfather passed away in March so she's also taking care of my grandmother.
So that leaves me looking for child care. I want to cry. I don't like the idea of leaving him with complete strangers. I feel like a crappy mom because I can't stay home with him :( We absolutely need both our incomes because (long story short: my husband screwed up his mom's credit from when he went to college so he has to buy her a condo in our name when she retires - she will be making the payments. She just doesn't have the credit so it has to be in our name).
Also did I mention my car is about to take a s hit? Insert tears here.
I guess this is just a vent because there's really no good advice for this :(