Warning: Long post: I am 30 (soon to be 31) and i've always wanted to have kids. I had attempted to get married first at age 25, but ended up canceling the wedding one month before the day due to cheating. i've always tried to do the "get an education, then get married and buy a house" thing before deciding to have kids. well at 30, things didn't work out that way. while i have travelled a lot and enjoyed my single life, i found out i am pregnant by my last ex boyfriend. He already has several kids and currently lives with the mother of his last child. we had still being seeing each other and i was working out of town, coming home to visit. and we would always hang out when i visited. but this time, i got pregnant, the same day i came home! last month i was diagnosed with several fibroid tumors and a cyst (they are painful!!!) and i asked my doc how and if they would affect my future fertility. well, this month i'm in a totally different boat! i'm so conflicted with my feelings. i had initially considered aborting, due to the circumstances surrounding this pregnancy. then i thought about what that would mean. i am financially stable and will totally have the support of my family and friends. but i'm kind of shamed that i'm not married and this situation is so ugly! oh, and he wants me to not have this baby of course. i have already thought about what i need to do to get prepared to have this baby. but i think the shame and embarassment are getting the best of me! if it weren't for that, i would probably already have told the entire world! anybody else go through something like this?