I spent most of yesterday grieving, kind of figuring out how to close the door on ttc. I think we are done with RE treatments. But after a rough day, I am feeling pretty good about it all today. I am so thankful for DS and DH! I have a wonderful family and there are so many good things to be happy about. I think I am starting to be at peace with a family of three. I know there will still be hard days, but I'm letting go. And honestly, I feel an immense sense of relief. I will probably still be on the board for a little while as I transition out of the ttc mindframe. I hope that's okay, and I will be rooting for all of you!
And, on a side note, my dad called last night and said they got all five numbers on the Fantasy Five lottery. They won $215,000 and change! Holy crap!
Me: 42. DH: 46.
1st Pregnancy: MC, 11/19/00.
2nd Pregnancy: DS born 04/10/06.
3rd Pregnancy: CP, 03/11.
4th Pregnancy: MMC, D&C 11/30/11, Genetic testing revealed Trisomy 4.
5th Pregnancy: Ectopic, 2 doses of Methotrexate unsuccessful, surgery 4/10/12, right tube removed.
Tried Letrozole January 2013-July 2013 (including 2 IUIs), all BFN. After 2 1/2 years of trying for child #2, decided to "give up" after July cycle, based on AMA.
August 16, 2013: BFP our first month of "not trying!" Still in shock. Beta #1 (14dpo): 183. Beta #2 (17dpo): 611. Ultrasound 8/30/13: baby measured 6 weeks, 1 day, heart rate of 118 bpm!
Ultrasound 9/13/13: 8 weeks, heart rate of 176!
Baby is due 4/26/14